Maybe I over indulge on Tv, sleep, and food because I'm lonely.
Lonely; a word that has come up in my life a lot recently.
I like to spend time by myself, I'm an introvert so that comes naturally.
But I'm missing the one person I would drop plans with myself to go see instead.
I've done that all my life.
In high school I would leave my friends just to go cruise around and smoke a bowl even for five minutes.
The only person that has my sense of humor because we have the same laugh.
Someone I have gone to for everything and expected them to do the same.
I'm sure she has her reasons but I just miss my sister.

If the sea was the
sky and the sky was the sea
"It'd rain everyday

He was my peach
My plum
My one true love
He jerks away his shoulder from my resting head
He's cold
Like his open window in November
The wind blows through me
He indulges my cherry heart
With sweet nothings tainted
And turns around to slap my hand
Remind me
How ugly I truly am
My peach
My plum
My one true love
The smell of mandarin lingers in the hallway
His smile comes to caress my cheek
It hurts my head
His Gemini spirit
Taunts me
This unavailable heart of mine
That's his