The color red, it's your favorite
The color white, your car, your house
Shakespeare, we were King and Queen
Choir, you sing like an angel
Gymnastics, you competed
Joseph, you directed
Laser tag, you destroyed
HIMYM, we watched as we cuddled
Your scent, it still lingers on me
Wine, I'd love to drink with you
New Years Eve, we talked all day and night
Mitchell's, we stayed for hours and conversed
France, we traveled together
Poetry, you got me writing again
My car, where we kissed at midnight
My basement, where we made love
It all reminds me of you

Sometimes I wish I had amnesia so I could forget...move on
But I love you so much
No case of amnesia could take you out of my mind

Although sometimes it hurts
I want you to know
That I love each and every one of those little things that reminds me of you

Why does life have to be so cruel?
Putting myself in a place like this was not how I planned my senior year to go
And now I'm crying my eyes out
I'm in a world of pain and sorrow
I've never loved something so much that it hurt but you're my first
I'm leaving a trail of tears everywhere I go
I'm flooding the world with my emotions
No one can sense the pain I hide except for you

I want you to be mine, but you're hers
I want to be yours too, but you're hers
I want to cuddle with you, but you're hers
I want to kiss you all day and all night, but you're hers
I want to be your everything, but you're hers
And I want you to be the same for me, but you're hers
There are so many things I want to do with you but can't
All
Because
*You're hers

I can't imagine a life where I don't end up with you
But to be honest...it's inevitable
And that scares me
You can't picture a life where I'm all you need
And that brings tears to my eyes
You apologize as the salt from my tears approaches my lips, leaving stains on my cheek
We've dug ourselves a deep hole that won't be easy to climb out of
My hands are shaking as I'm typing these words
The taste of salt on my tongue
Why did fate do this to us?
Everything happens for a reason, but what's the justification for all of this pain, suffering, love that won't evolve into anything?
Maybe we'll find out tomorrow, maybe we'll find out in a decade, maybe we'll never find out at all
But I can assure you one thing
If I had to redo this part of my life,
100 times out of 100, I would dig that hole again and again with you