I wiped the tears from your cheek,
whispering that I never want to hurt you
I cradled you in my arms,
desperately holding you even as I knew
your fingers were slipping from my hands
I cried while my heart grew weak
But all I could think or see,
were the tears dripping down on your cheek,
salty tears staining the complexion of your skin
and I wiped them as I continued cradling you,
hoping… you would stay here forever
but i knew you would one day leave me too
so to the next season of love,
I hope he treats you with care
in ways I could only imagine
but just know, I tried my best … I swear

i remember that sunset drive.
cascades of light that folded in between our hands.
and i watched you close your hands against mine.
i watched the light between our hands fade — into nothing.
pulling back was the only course i took to save us,
but you will never know that, will you?
it was on that drive did I realize...
love is such a jading feeling.

it was, as it is
like before and after
I forgot and remembered
all these big, yet little things
that we call emotions.
which made up who we were
and the lost wishes we hold
as we spiral out
— of control.
I remembered, I did...
love you most

i fought in silence,
to hold back the tears that swelled in my eye.
i fought the silence,
hoping that these tears will soon dry.

because no matter what you do,
i fight me, to keep these memories of you.

i'm not waiting for you

instead, i am counting the seconds, minutes, and hours
that we are apart from one another.

and to each measurement of time,
i will recount...
the seconds that i love you
the minutes that i miss you
and the hours where i stay, hopeful

i wrote her a poem that will never be read.
a poem fused with the passions of my heart,
and the undying flames of my love.
however, this poem shall never be read.

i wrote of her brown eyes and contagious smiles,
those Pretty Eyes that would leave me breathless for a while.
i wrote of her beautiful heart and her loving touch,
the kind that makes me care a bit too much.

i wrote about the times i held her hand and wiped her tears,
hoping for many more memories in the future years.
i wrote of the bargain i made with fate,
trading my heart and soul for just one more date.

i wrote of the regrets i had when i couldnt be there,
crying out to god that this isnt fair.