I'm ripping out the pages of your notebook

You're tearing me apart from the look in your eyes

The taste of your lips

The sound of your voice

You build the walls that lay deep down inside of me

My soul is home whenever you are around

I can go on and on about you all day

You are just ******* great

"Why don't you just cheer up?"

Why don't you just shut the **** up?

"You have such a miserable tone in your voice."

Thank you ******* I know

You think I'm ******* happy?

No one is ever ******* happy

So don't go on and tell me your sappy bulshit that I don't want to hear

Happiness is just a fantasy that cannot be reached

No one knows me

I live within secrets to everyone

Do you wanna see what I hide under the sheets?

Do want  to see all of the ******* pills I take?

I already know I'm ******* insane

No need to tell again

Why did you want me?

I'm the solution to your loneliness?

Are you only using me because no one else wants you?

Love is too much of a dangerous game to play

I can never roll the dice the right way

I always lose at something I once wanted to win

I never get the mark

I know you don't want to look at me

My weird nose

My fat body

I'm a creature  no one will ever want

I don't have the appeal

I don't have the personality

I never liked the right bands

I never sang the right song

Something about me was always out of tune

My guitar always breaks

One by one

The strings start to fall

Everything starts to fade

And takes my memory away

Just leave me be

No one ever love me please

Well I guess this is really the end

You couldn't even say goodbye

No texts

No calls

Nothing from you

You leave me with closure

But I know your heart is still wide open

Sorry that I couldn't give you what you wanted

I'm too afraid

And your to ashamed to see what you have done to me

Too many tears

Too many fights for me

I think it is about time I put up the white flag

I'm done playing this mind game

She is turning into her nasty habits again

Skipping meals

What was once inside her goes down the drain

She never saw what other people saw in her

Why was she so mean to herself?

She didn't want to be broken

But she didn't want to be fixed

She always thought everything was just fine

And nothing was a big deal

Is she blind to whats around her?

Who is this girl?

Could she be me?

Could she be you?

No one will ever know who she is

Because she is a mystery and always will be

What do you want from me?

What do you need from me?

We are a car that is about to crash

Sometimes thinks are meant to be broken for a reason

This time I don't have the ******* answers you want

I'm torn between love and hate

how can I hate someone that I was so in love with?

but how can I love someone that just used to hurt me?

I'm so afraid

My head is full of fear

I want you

But then I want you to go away

My mind is always changing

I can never stay on one ******* page

I'm giving up

I'm done

**** this pressure that I feel

I never get the grade

Why is everyone going ahead?

When I'm just falling behind

Why do we mask our emotions?

What is there to hide?

Hiding behind a blanket of fear?

Or a head full of sorrow

I can't take this anymore

My body aches

My head is about to explode

I can't face the disappointment