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864 · May 2013
i am free
oh me oh my May 2013
today i realized
you were never
the world to me.

today i realized
you were the culprit
of my sadness.

today i realized
you were never
what you promised.

today i realized
i don't need you
and never did.


today i realized

i am okay.
i do not need you.
i'm getting better.
I am okay, for the first time I can vividly remember. I'm getting better.

This was more for me to relish than it was for others to read and enjoy.
862 · Jan 2013
poured
oh me oh my Jan 2013
We were
bleach and
darkened clothes.

Wasted upon me,
you left me nothing but

stained and
utterly ruined.
845 · Sep 2015
revert
oh me oh my Sep 2015
one a morning,
one a night.

he said it would make my world bright.

one a morning,
one a night.

white porcelain has never looked so right.

one a morning,
one a night.

my skin has never appeared so blight.

one a morning,
one a night.

i tell myself i am alright.
839 · Jul 2013
two-toned
oh me oh my Jul 2013
he looked at me,
with eyes of red.

he spoke to me,
his words harsh.

he looked at me,
with voice of dead.

he spoke to me,
his eyes of the marsh.
-
his teeth were sharp
my tongue was his harp

his claws on my skin
my heartbeat was his sin

his eyes were red
my wrists pinned to the bed
-
he looked at me,
expected fear,
there was none to hear.
werewolf in love with a human, forbidden love, yadda yadda
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Been a while since I've written! Trying something new, message me with your thoughts?
837 · Dec 2012
Unfortunately
oh me oh my Dec 2012
Bitten tongues,
hardened tones,
damp, pale words,
closed ears,
silent eyes.

I could've warned you.
I wouldn't have warned you.
Maybe it was worth the while to put you through the pain I had suffered. Maybe it was wasn't worth the while to see the cold sting in your eyes.
834 · Jun 2013
Four Months
oh me oh my Jun 2013
no more
blood down
the drains

no more
******
band aids

no more
blades
of rust

no more
saying
i must

i want to be free
Over four years of fighting, I'm four months clean.
826 · May 2014
reasons why
oh me oh my May 2014
because i see in colors,
and you shut your eyes in grey.

because you said
you loved me,
but you loved her
and her
and her.

i did not fall for you,
but my tears
did not listen
and fell for you anyways.
you would have thought i would've learned after the first boy.
804 · Dec 2012
Piece by piece
oh me oh my Dec 2012
We’re scattered.

In the beginning of December, it was 70 degrees and I thought of you.
Dear, I say, I hurt, I hurt. I hurt so much for you.
Dear, you say, you say, you hurt you hurt. You hurt so much for her.
You can’t have her, oh, you hurt. I can’t have you, oh, I hurt.
We’re scattered on this earth, pieces disheveled, sharpened and broken and scattered on this earth.
I tried to pick up the pieces dear, she did and I did. She tried, I tried.
We both gave up, but you stuck with her.


We’re scattered, babe, piece by piece on this earth,
she can’t fix me, what makes you think she would be able to fix you?
oh me oh my Dec 2012
You made me promise not to leave you,

I did what you asked without a lingering thought,

on the condition that you never left,

me.


You loved me and I promise, I swear,

I loved you too,

even if I never showed it to you.


But the thing I think is funny,

is also the thing I think is sad.

While I had promised to never leave you,

you had played a trick,

the one the ***** magicians play

in the back of the darkest alleyway.

It was a small gesture,

simple enough.

You had those fingers, behind your back,

crossed.


I was the only one to keep their promise,

because you were the one that left.
771 · Dec 2012
Home is with you
oh me oh my Dec 2012
He made it over the red brick wall, and I swear it was high, I thought it was high enough.
He wormed his way in, through the gates, through the bars.
He brought a hammer, smashed the glass.
Brought fire, bended the frames of the windows, got inside.
He brought gasoline, doused the house, doused every inch and every crevice of that home.
He dug a trench, dug it deep and wide around that house.

He had brought a bomb, lied and said it was his heart.
He left with a wire, trailing after and I thought I was safe, I trusted him.
He had brought a bomb, left it in my house, promised the smell of gasoline was a leak, and it would be fixed.
He said the damp covers and crevices were rain, since the windows were smashed.
He said the windows were destroyed because of a burglar, and he was trying to keep me safe.

He detonated the bomb, left me to burn, left me to rot with this obliterated home.

This house wasn't a home.

This house was my heart.
oh me oh my Mar 2015
i'm sorry,



she didn't make it.
i'll never understand why gentle souls suffer but i like to think she was too good for this world and was needed elsewhere. im glad you aren't suffering anymore. im sorry emma.
742 · Oct 2013
eight months thrown away.
oh me oh my Oct 2013
metallic between my fingers.
the metal throws shimmers.
eyes that no longer flash glimmers.

metallic biting into my thighs.
teeth ripping the skin of my thighs.
blood dripping down my thighs.

i sigh.
makes me calm.
makes me human.
makes me feel okay.

cant cry.
makes me disgusting.
makes me ashamed.
makes me regret.
makes me scar.

makes me hate myself even more.
Going through a rough time lately. Sorry for any triggers.
742 · Mar 2014
she would not.
oh me oh my Mar 2014
he looks at me
with those slate grey eyes.
he mocks at me
with that snarl tooth lisped grin.

he looks at me and his lips dont move,
but his eyes speak with mountains.

they say she slipped through my fingers
like water through the rocks in the river.
they say the longer i ran to keep her,
the further she ran to me.
they say the more you tried to save her,
the tighter your fingers bruised her pale skin
and gripped her throat
until her lungs were almost dead.

they said she did it voluntarily.
i know better.

you did not release your grip even when i let go.
i know better.
692 · Dec 2012
Cornered
oh me oh my Dec 2012
Miss are you sure?
Positive you’d like to do this?
Go through with this procedure?*

Do what you have to,
please, please,
take a finger,
take a toe,
take a limb,
take my nose.

Please, please, please.

Rid me of my soul.
577 · Oct 2014
did she feel
oh me oh my Oct 2014
there's a mantra screaming inside my brain and it's eating me alive

i can't stop thinking if she felt it or if it hurt or what she's seen
did she feel the machinery eat into her flesh and snap her bones like in a ******* movie scene

did she see the ground become the sky and the sky the ground
or did she see the trees as they grew upside down

did she see her life in her eyes
does she know that all we've done is cry

did she feel the tons of steel barrel into her and rip her limb from limb?

did she feel any fear?
a girl died today as she was getting off the bus. i did not know you, but i remember you. i am so sorry. you were only in the seventh grade. everyone saw.
575 · Nov 2014
Untitled
oh me oh my Nov 2014
i do not sleep,

though i weep.
546 · Oct 2014
i want
oh me oh my Oct 2014
i want to be pretty and i want to be vivacious and i want to wear ripped jeans and i want to have smooth skin and i want to be shorter and i want to have cheekbones so jutted i could slit throats and i want to dye my hair blue and i want to color my irises green and i want to stain walls with sadness and love and heartbreak and ruin them with holes and break my hands so i can feel my bones crack so i can feel something and be pushed up against them at 3 in the morning with a boy with his hands so tight around me and my legs so tight around him i feel ******* weightless and i want to watch the blood run from my wrists and thighs again and i want to say im sorry and i want to be confident and i want boys and even girls to love me and i want to stop hating myself and i want to stop ruining people's lives because i cant express myself and i want to write novels about strangers who wonder about the universe and why they matter in this insignificant world when nothing matters at all with coffee and paint stained canvases and i want to love someone and i want to grow up and i want to find myself and i want to know
who
i
am
and,

god.  

*i want to live
i am so, so lost.

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