my first day here
i couldn't wait to get out

but with every changing sunset
there is a hope i never have to leave

i wish you understood the sincerity in my words
when i poured out my feelings toward you
but all you did was laugh and call me a dork

i wish emotions were easier to understand
because then maybe you would have agreed with me
rather than misunderstanding my words

i stumble on my words when i talk about you
but my heart no longer flutters

because as we were running
you promised you would catch me
but when i stumbled you weren't there
and i fell

so now i stumble alone
with no one to catch me

but words are easier to handle
than a broken heart

i look up at the stars every night
hoping to see you

and i wonder

if you look down on earth every night
and hope to see me too

do you ever think back
to last summer in my hotel room
and wish you would have stayed?

i wonder if you get tired
from running through my mind all day

i want to kick you out of my head
you take up too much space
with all the racing around you do

but i want you to stay
because the noise you provide
is better than my silence

and the company
is better than being alone

there are so many people
in this room
surrounding me
talking over one another
taking up space.

there are so many people
in this room
laughing together
loving one another
smiling, happy.

there are so many people
in this room
playing games
playing friends
playing lovers

there are so many people
in this room
yet I am alone.