Have you ever seen a diamond?
Its cut and rough
Imperfect
Yet still as beautiful as ever
Just remember that

I can be painted
I can be decorated
I can be destroyed
Or I can be taken down
Piece by piece

You can try to get over me
But you'll never be able to walk through me
You can talk but I wont listen
You can ask but I wont answer

I can look nice
I can look plain
I can look destroyed
I can look like nothing but a pile of bricks

It just depends on how you treat me

I still worry about how I look 24/7
I still feel like crying everytime Im in large crowds
I still choke up when I have something to say
I still need to speak up
Because you could'nt hear my voice from one foot away

But Im getting better
Its hard but Im getting there

My random out burst of anger arent helping though but thats barely under my control

So dont taunt me
Dont make "oOoOo" noises after I've gotten mad
Its not my fault
And if you dont understand then maybe you should stop making me feel like ****

But Ive gotten better
Suicidal thoughts are a thing of the past
And Im so glad they didnt last

Ive gotten better
I can control my tears now
I can control the way I act most times

And I guess its for the best
That I just forget about the rest

You ask:
Whats wrong
Are you okay
Tell me

As though you're actually interested in my emotions
So I tell you but only to realise that once you've heard you want to hear

You
Switch
Off

Leaving me feel exposed and judged
I just told you something very personal to me yet you don't say anything?

You don't care about my feelings
You just want to
Know
Know everything that goes on

Because by nature you're a hopeless gossip
You don't even have to act

That's why I can't trust you one bit
And neither should anyone else

I try to grab your attention
But you just shrug and turn away
I try to smile at you
Be a **** to you
But you don't seem to care
Just stuck in a world of fear

Im scared
So ******* scared
That you're not okay
That you say you're fine
Simply to keep me away

I don't understand
If something's wrong
Then talk about it
Or draw about
Just please, please don't bottle it up

Its weird to say
but I love you in a mate kind of way
If anything were to happen to you-





I don't know what I'd do.

All you do is put me down
Shut me down
And laugh

You're a ******* princess
Thinking you're cool
Just because you hang with a group of people that seem to think they're better than everyone else

You always have your nails done
Your eyebrows done
Your hair done
Everything has to be perfect

Im not a girly girl
Im not rich
Im just a white chick
Who couldve give two *****

I used to think you were my friend
That you were nice
But the only reason I ever thought that
Is because you were using me
Since you had noone else

We were best friends
Great friends
But now I wonder why
I dont want anything to do with you anymore
All you do is make me feel like Im below you
That Im not good enough
That Im not cool enough

You know what?
Go **** yourself.

I know boys
Such petty creatures
Making girls swoon with a caress of the neck
I know boys
With off-putting features
Reaching for the supple warmth of a breast
I know a boy
Whom in fact I once loved
Fixing breaking mending taking trying not to cut
I know a boy
Who should watch as he does
For girls are not known to keep their mouths shut