like an animal waiting to pounce,
the effects are disastrous
and tough to undo.
she’s dying to be noticed,
dying to be loved.
she’s crying at night,
it’s her lullaby.
there’s a mask on her face
that hides all the worry,
locks all the pain inside.
when you look into her eyes,
look into her soul.
don’t stop just on the surface.
she’s crying inside and asking herself,
why can’t anyone hear me?

for once in my life I felt beautiful,
and I felt like I was enough.
for once in my life whispers didn’t matter,
I was someone no one could touch.
for once in my life I was committed
and didn’t feel any pressure,
for once in my life I was risky
yet had never felt more secure.
for once in my life, those 3 little words had a meaning,
and for once in my life I meant them
and I thought you did to.
for once in my life I let someone in,
and tried not to push them away.
for once in my life I am heartbroken,
because for once in my life I cared.
for the last time I will feel this way,
for the last time I will cry,
but for once in my life I was vulnerable,
and for once in my life I am sure
that I will never be anymore.

Can't still
Need to go
Going crazy
This can't fit the bill
Need to get out
Mind is spinning
The work is hazy
Something is missing
Feeling restless
Can't stay here
I am a hopeless wanderer
That much has always been clear
Need to get going
Must pack the bags
New skylines await me
Must escape the restless plague

we're partners in crime
(if crimes were adventures)
and we were adventurers
(if adventures were conversations)
and we shared discussions
(if discussions were love songs)
and you made me sing them
(if singing was sharing)
and all of your wisdom words and stories
(if lies were true)
and we actually met
(if i wasn't me)
and you weren't you
(if we weren't friends)
we'd be perfect

if nothing lasts
but nothing fades
what is left
for us to gain.
hide your fears
behind the wall
count you steps
don't lose it all.
shadows conceal
but the sun is bright
our pasts revealed
in the light.
what hands can open
curtains cover
don't stow away,
love one another
it's all we've got
yet it doesn't exist
don't be afraid
to find you way,
don't look back
keep going, don't stop

once i thought i was straight.
i dated a guy,
wrote about a girl
and blamed it on him not loving me.

once i thought i was gay
then his name popped up
i remembered how much i loved him
and blamed it on her distance.

now i've realized i'm human

and i only have myself to blame.