I loved you so obnoxious blossoming petals
oh how blindly i focused
Eyes neglecting your thorns ;
it was easy to forget that i was worth quite the same
It was harder to remember from which door i had came
i would clutch you in my palms and hold you close to my nose
Now my hands have some holes ;
and my blood is exposed...

I loved you so obnoxious blossoming petals
oh how happy you made me
Whiffs of joy killed dispair ;
it was easy to forget that i was still on my own
No one actually there
no one entered my zone...
No one really has possession of others
this idea is alluding
Ties your heart in a knot
are these devils intruding
Were they always around ?
watching as i withstand
To push my face in the ground..

Start of as a child
dreams of flying high , super powers , runnin wild
Some ul hold you close while the others do you vile
or try ;
I wondered why my peace had to die
advance ;
My first love had me in a trance
took advantage of my lack of knowledge in the dance
Its cool ;
before i played i should have learned the rules
Fooled by material in earthly realms i drooled..

Still convoluted by material things
i wanted money **** the women they had watered my wings..
Growing older i got colder cuz my brothers were foul
elder told me keep on going never throw in the towel...
I had forgot ;
wildly missed the plot
Results of a recluse who never took another shot ;
at life
I watched my brothers overcome their strife
congratulate from far while eating fruit that wasn't ripe..
Debilitate myself inside my shoddy shelter walls  
never showed my face whenever village elder called..

Outlast all my troubles
my demons close behind ;
To get to the end where the light of heaven shines

Apparently im losing
apparently im lost
So viciously unfocused
i fall and pay the cost

Uncanny how they breach in
My pride was like a boat
its dawning several holes
to water im exposed
then drown..

My issues give me pounds on rearrival
lately hits to ego have me feeling small as Fievel..
I feel as though im lacking
or unfit for this girl ;
They tell me play the game
while cheaters run the world..

Love is not for me ;
about a dream ago i swore id let my heart be free
I lied
debating my elated compromise...

At least the ground had my back
no energy to move they surround and attack
I failed ;
my dream of touching mouth to holy grail..

Dumping bucketful's into cups
****** ;
Forgetting older lessons getting stuck
starved ;
Never did i think id find my way
i swore that i could use you as a bridge from my decay..

Advocate for peace
nothing left to lose  
Every one will feast..

Used to have a dream ;
used to have a love from above though it seemed
Serene
the color of your eyes hid the lies
The fog in the skies symbolized my demise..

No remorse
no affiliation
Federal's amphetamines ensue debilitation
at last ;
He had the heart of someone in his grasp
clutched too tight so it didn't really last...

Used to have a dream
used to being last
Used to being separated by my skin or cast
or both ;
Told his brothers not to give up hope
whoever is your god he or she will shift the *****..

Out of sight out of mind yet i feel it in my spine
genocide left my eyes rolled from behind
Was blind ;
never held the cup when you had poured
Never caught the hawk while it lived as it soured
gored
Easily distracted are my friends ;
who walk without a limp in a bubble of pretend..

It blows ;
blows like the winds in the trees
Blows like her hair when the air lifts the leaves
please ;
Never say that no one else had tried
all of us are kin
Do not believe the lies..