leave me be
Drowning in a shallow pond
Cries slowly filling the air
Fresh cuts gushing blood
leave me be
As I forget who I am
Embracing the pain
leaning on my own shoulder for support
Just like its always been
i make the last cut
Collapsing on the blood stained tiles
And my eyes go dark

There's this question that's been bugging me
And it keeps playing on repeat
Every second of the day
Every night I lay awake
Every dream I pretend I dont remember
All so I don't have to admit
That I still think of you
Even when I don't want to
Every tear dedicated to you
Every beat my heart skips
As my memories slowly fade
And I forget who we were
Maybe I could have saved us
But then I think
Who am to you
Deep down I still love you

you smile all the same
but send shivers down my spine
your laugh has the same tune
but fills me with an empty sensation
your eyes sparkle the same constellation
but stare into my soul
you charm a way into my hardened heart
but exited the same entrance
you say I love you
but never mean it

writing is my salvation
but freedom has a price
leaving my heart open
Already been broken twice