My mind over full
Where to restart
My plate staked high
With pain and tears
Long ago I used to have
No plate
My mind full of songs

Maybe I was only meant to
mend a part of your past
and not stay for your future

Why do you hesitate
Is it fear or disinterest
You're drawing circles around my clarity.

Maybe you were only meant to
reignite the poetry in me
and leave me in pieces still

Maybe we were only meant to
be all that we are
nothing more.

Maybe it's what I really needed
a lesson on slowing down
on patience

Maybe you were only meant to
bring me sweet moments
hopeful little reminders

Because you've made no move
and I've got no guesses
on what you're feeling

Maybe the truths I'm feeling here
are not the same for you
I can only speak for myself.

The two of us were, me and you, you and I,
Two ugly truths and a lovely lie.

I am searching within for
some source of warmth
but it’s freezed over and
lost its touch. I’m trying to
keep ahold of my happiness
but it’s just not there. Something
inside me shifted. Something
changed. Something’s not
there. I have been on my knees
for far too long, but don’t mind
me, I’ll find it soon enough.

You look
light into my
dreams
a whole mind
under this
ocean-tango
the
exit sign
the scents
entwined
ascending
your head
my neck
the pulse of you
sticks
burns
of fire
us
a
twizzler
of spirit
entering
with
transparency

saying this makes my heart ache
my stomach churn
and my eyes water
but a place like this
is not one i would've liked to exist in
where everyone excludes one
because of a language barrier
and is punished for speaking their own language
because the others felt uncomfortable
it disgusts me
that people think it's acceptable
and it saddens me
that this is a world we live in

If I cannot run, I will not fall,
If I cannot kneel, I will not crawl.
If I cannot sleep, I will not dream,
If I cannot wake, I will not scheme.
If I cannot lie, I will not speak,
If I cannot die, I will not weep.