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 Apr 2015 Myri
Beth Decisions
I can't stop listing pro's and con's.
Positives and Negatives of death.
Con...
It will break your parents hearts.
Pro...
You won't keep disappointing everyone you love.
Con...
It will **** your friends.
Pro...
You won't have to be constantly remembering the lost of your baby.
Con...
Your beautiful little cousins.
Pro...
You won't have to constantly be around the person you hate the most... Yourself.
Con...
Your bestfriend
Con...
Everyone who believes in you.
Pro
I wont have to spend my life disabled by my illnesses
Con
Giving up a future
Pro
I won't have to remember all the pain of losing you.
Con...
The possibility of it hurting you to lose me.

All I can do is list pros and cons.
I want to be dead.
Just gone.
Disappear from myself and all my emotions.
Never exist again.
I just don't know if I can do that to my family, to my friends.
If I can break their hearts...
Just to escape mine.
 Apr 2015 Myri
Beth Decisions
For over a year now you've been my life line.
I stayed alive because of you.
You always told me that if I die, you die.
So I stayed alive.
Simply because I could never hurt you.
Though Sunday it became clear that you're done with me.
Don't want anything to do with me.
Which meant if I died.
You wouldn't.
I didn't have something stopping me anymore.
I hate myself more than I can even explain.
So I got drunk and tried to **** myself.
I gave up over 16months of sobriety because I thought I was going to be dead by the end of the day.
I wanted to die.
I was going to die.
But yet...
I'm still alive.
I gave up 16 months of sobriety and I'm still alive.
I sicken myself.
And I still just want to die.
 Apr 2015 Myri
GaryFairy
I heard a man yelling
he was walking toward me
he said he had a bone to pick
he said he had something for me

he starting pushing me
I pulled out my razor knife
I put it to his throat
I said "I'll take your life"

I looked into his eyes
fear is all that filled them
I told him not to move
if he had, I would have killed him
 Apr 2015 Myri
GaryFairy
I love her more than anything
there is still something missing
something that I always long for
loving, touching, kissing
 Apr 2015 Myri
GaryFairy
unfriended
 Apr 2015 Myri
GaryFairy
"familiarity breeds contempt"
the same goes for game invites
 Apr 2015 Myri
GaryFairy
loyalty
 Apr 2015 Myri
GaryFairy
you never know if a person is loyal
until you, or that person dies
loyalty means loyal until death
although many of us wear that disguise
we say we are friends until the end
while we look into the eyes
meanwhile, under our breath
we are hoping for the other's demise
 Apr 2015 Myri
Harly A Quinn
We talk about
pain
like it doesn't
hurt

We talk about
love
but we don't
know it

We talk about that
girl
over there, but
she didn't do a
thing

And then we have the audacity to
laugh it off
like it's
no big deal

That's all we do now
laugh and talk

Maybe we don't
know
what we're talking about

instead of pretending to have the
knowledge
we should get a feel
ourselves
take the pain we've inflicted
upon others

And maybe just maybe
we'll get how
big of a deal
it really is
 Apr 2015 Myri
Audrey Maday
9:20 PM
 Apr 2015 Myri
Audrey Maday
She had this beautiful face. The kind of face which should have made her a "Popular Girl." But she wasn't. She didn't "fit in" because she liked rock more than country and wore black skinny jeans instead of blue and because at that party she wouldn't sleep with the quarterback, even though he just got us into the state championship.
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