I bet
She makes you laugh
Until your sides hurt and you can't breathe
I bet
Your head was spinning when you kissed her
And every time after that
I bet
She feels safe in your arms and when her hand is in yours
I bet she makes you smile, even just hearing her name
I bet she's nothing like me
Not like me at all
I couldn't make you laugh,
And the thought of us together made you appalled
It would have never happened you and I
I bet
We would have hated each other
I bet
Our kisses would be forced and cold
I bet
I would have grown to like your hand in mine
I bet we would have never lasted
But, I know I would have loved it anyway

They sing their sweet song 
You listen attentively 
They sing the same notes over again 
Why? 
Oh the birds are free, to fly where the wind goes 
But what do they really mean 
Their chirp and chatter
Possibly a cry for help 
Help me help me help me
They cry
A bird can only fly so far 
Can only do so much 
In so much time 
Their life is not magnificent 
Each day is torture 
When will they eat 
Will they become prey 
Will their bodies withstand the harsh elements 
Will their eggs survive 
See, the birds aren't so great 
What makes them different than ourselves?
The birds are like people too 
They have feelings 
The birds are miserable, so why do they live? 
That have families too, and so they're stuck. 
Sure, the caged bird sings of freedom 
But once it's attained, they're trapped 
Help me help me help me

I don't regret the ring
I don't regret the promise
It showed me my truth.

Quite sad really
How one can dream day by day
Craving another's lips
To taste their sweetness
Revel in their softness
Passion, overwhelming passion
Two lips meet
Not quite by mistake
Waiting, waiting, impatient
The right time will come
When will that time come
Waiting for a moment, and searching for what I do not know
Hoping for that sheer moment of magic
Anticipation building
When one least expects it
Ta da
Magic

When I fell, it was for your eyes
Your perfect, gentle smile
I fell for the way you so gently looked up at me
I fell for that **** accent
And even harder for your mind
You captured my heart with your sweet words
And I surrendered, at first unwillingly
You never realized the way my heart beat
Whenever you were near me
I fell so hard for those pauses you make, whenever you're thinking intently
I wished I could ignore your true feelings, and that I was in this one sided
I fell hard even when you told me your heart was with someone else
I truly fell for your sweet , kind soul
It's hard to find those so kind and open
I think in the end what I fell for the most
Was the fact that you were just different
So different than anyone I'd met, giving me feelings I've never felt
I'm just so thankful to you for that
I'm just so thankful I fell for you

Never will I lose myself
To another feeble mind
Never will I **** a mam
I'd not be so unkind
Never will I never love
It's the best thing of all
Never shall I stop &
Think about nothing for awhile
Never, ever will I give
My heart to some ol' fool
Never will I lie to yo'u
To make myself look cool
Never shall I ever think
I dont have enough grace
And never will I regret seeing
Your smile or your face

I dreamt of you and your sweet lips last night . The way they meshed with mine was perfect. Your eyes sparkled when you pulled away, and your pupils dilated at the sight if my face. Again we kissed and it was gentle. None of that sloppy , tonguey business ; only a brief touch of your lips against mine. But, in that moment, I knew you wanted me. I could tell by your lack of hesitation. I could tell by your passion and stance. I could tell by your smile I felt as your lips pulled away. And, I knew , at least for now, that we would be happy for awhile .

I can't wait
For the next moment
Where I draw my fingers across someone's skin
Where I kiss their lips, gliding them acres their soft eyes and nose and down to their neck
Until my hands feel every soft curve and muscle with a delicate touch
Until I feel your breath synchronize with mine
Until I can taste your passion with my tongue
When I feel your hands across my skin, awakening my body in ways I can't do alone
I don't know who you'll be
But I can't wait

I feel so stupid
For thinking that you'd ever
Feel something for me

You love her
She loves you
But who loves me here?
I do.
I am so much happier without you
I am so much wiser since you left.
Have your fun, live your life.
Maybe she'll become your wife?
Whatever happens, I won't know
But I will be happy-
Oops
I AM happy, just loving me.

Give a little kiss
A little touch
Even your kind words are enough
Hear me out
Let my breathy, light words touch your soul
Lean in close, really feel me
I'd let you near
If only you wanted me

Constantly doubting
In a state of questioning
What is it that draws me in?
Can I break free
From loves cruel grip
I feel so weak in this
A matter not under my control
But who's is it?

My eyes are big and brown
Though he does not like them
For they don't sparkle in the light the way others' do
My face is warm and sweet, comforting
But he doesn't care
For all he'd like to do is stare at her longingly
It could be those things, my lips, my smile, my hands, my touch
Whatever it be
These are the things I cannot change
The things he wouldn't change
Simply because they belong not to her, but to me
Poor, lonely, misfortune me

I've just fallen out of love
It only dawned on me a few short hours ago
I have come yet again to a realization
Epiphany if you will
I'm not going to be that person to give you the love you need
I can't provide you happiness
Make you smile, or your heart beat faster
It was just something I imagined
No doubt I felt everything, more than I have with any other
But alas, tears fall, for this feeling has left me
These suppressed emotions no longer exist
And this all came to me just yesterday

Every now and then there's
A peak of inspiration
The moment may be fleeting
But from this time
Emotions arise, and feelings become clear
And only then am I able to tell you of
My dreams, my love, and my fears

If I were strong
I would say I'm not okay
But I am weak, so fine I stay
If I were to stare down into your face
I'd smash it in with my graceful words
Swords, knives, that's what your words feel like
I feel this ache in the space between our sour meetings
Do not touch, so I won't touch
See no evil, so I look away from you
I'm weighted down by the emotions that lay heavy within me
I carry them like shacked round my ankles
I carry them in spaces between my teeth and tongue
They fall out when the pressure is too much
It all spills out, soiling the sacred ground
Burying the good news which surrounds me
I have this ache in my chest, where love used to be
It's dull and sad and it pains me
You smile, I cringe
You laugh, I cry
You gain control and I wither in my soul
In this ache, I want you to feel these knives and aches and pains and stops and starts and agony and woe
But no
You simply won't
It's this battle in my head and my chest and legs and if I stretch far enough, breathe deeply enough, and smile widely enough
I will no longer think of you
No God
No bad
Oblivious
In bliss

Never have I experienced quite a whirlwind of emotion
I hardly dreamed meeting one like you
It happened unexpectedly
My heart grew fond, rapidly
That momen when you just feel it
Is it love?
Is it lust?
What it is, I care not
The joy, and mirth,
As if you descended from the Kingdom,
By the aid of Angels on gilded wings
I'll never find one whose eyes turn my soul to mush
Eyes that have seen what I haven't
Lips so itching to be kissed,caressed
A mind so malleable, ever growing
Full of ideas I could hardly comprehend
This first instance, completely unexpected that I'd feel this strong
I developed a passion, this deep passion
To know you and your name and your mind
'twas my choice to let you know the words from my heart
I hope you look back, understand that
This was the first time I'd ever felt such
Strong, euphoric, emotions
Sweet affection
First love

I bet his kisses are soft and gentle. His touch soft, and faint. The impression of his lips imprinted in my mind, where I keep those secret things. The way he smiles not just with his lips, but with his eyes. Oh those eyes how they sparkle, and I hope that they smile for me . I hope I'm doing something right here; I may have to take a risk. But, only good can come from this. Still, I'd love to feel his kiss.

She's beautiful
Takes your breath away
Despite your efforts, your eyes never leave her gaze
She makes yo'u nervous
Gives you this indescribable feeling
All you want is to be close to her
Feel her
Listen to her
Touch her
It's those eyes, her smile
The way she laughs at the things you say
I'm no professional
Merely a girl with feelings
But I'll be ****** if you aren't in love
Head over heels
Going crazy for this girl
Who frankly is not too interested in you
I don't get what you see
I don't have to
I just wished that you had seen me
And felt those same things too

Look at my poor heart
It's not quite broken yet
It's simply aching

I turned to you
Rest your head on my shoulder
I listened often
Saw my eyes in your eyes
Felt the tension between us
Maybe its imagined
I want this to be real
But I know its imagined
Theres no room for me
And I know I cant make it
Its a hopeless affair
And my heart just cant take it

When i search for myself
It was found
In others
I craved attention
Like it was my antidote
Want me, need me, kiss me,
Want me, **** me, **** me
You never needed me
I found myself in others
In his blue eyes, in his green ones
In his laugh, in his smile
In his touch, in his mind
With him,
I want me, i need me,
I care for me
So that i may be whole for him
So i can find myself within myself
Not in his stunning blue eyes
Not in his art
Not in his hands
Not on his body
But within myself

I'm breathing slightly heavily
I sat anticipating....the feeling
I freeze when you look at me
Bc you're seeing me

Your gaze wanders, but it comes back
I tense up when it's back

You do see me

I swallow and hope I don't choke when you're looking into my eyes and I'm aware I'm being seen

I can't hide my nervous tics or the nauseating feeling from remembered trauma and hyper attentiveness

You don't turn me away
And I suppose that's your job

But it is more than that and I can sense it and when I do I tense again

My head is heavy and my heart is steady as I contain my laughs and smiles just a moment longer

So there isn't the acknowledgement that you're what's on my mind


I'm the queen of subtlety; of unspecified glances and daydreams and gentle flirtation

I figured myself out to a degree and I'm starting from scratch

I don't know where this feeling should go- it's too soon for my heart but my head is tired of tossing the idea around

If I think too hard I start to imagine me, still lacking confidence but at least owning myself enough to tell you I want to try this with you


I'm enamored, empassioned, and frightful

When I feel this I run and I dont look back.

And yet I stay

With the hope and dreams for a future

In it things are just....different and I can take myself to that vulnerable place and it's received and cherished and respected.

God, I want to kiss you and I know that's so boring and unoriginal and simplistic but when I think about kissing you? My brain goes warm and fuzzy and I'm reminded I do and can feel joy and lust and care and passion.

My heart is full and I can't bleed it dry again, she just can't take it

But what I can take is one more look at that beautiful face of yours and wonder to myself how things could be if I had the courage to just ask you

I want to feel it. I want to feel you opening up to me and getting closer and feeling like maybe there's a part of you that wants.... something

I feel something; it's something that's happened between now and months ago and its changing and it scares me but you're making me feel something and its worth addressing

I didn't give you consent
To change the meaning

Take me back
To the night we met
The laziest night
I clutched my phone in my hand, staring at the address..hoping this is it
Praying for safety
I softened when I saw you, in washed out blue jeans and that scraggly hair you hadn't cut
In my mind I fast forward to your powder blue sheets

The 2 foot distance between us and the tension growing as I felt a new type of panic
Of actual, genuine, physical attraction that was reciprocated

I tried to ignore everytime you smiled at me and looked at my lips, I had to maintain my hardness

And then you uttered 'im sorry, I talk so much when I'm really nervous"

And I asked you why?

And I knew why

And then the music ceased.

you turned it on, and turned to me

You mumbled on about feeling flustered and feeling fearful of the moment where you'd lean in to kiss me

And we leaned in closer and then I just remember it so clearly.

The smiling between kisses, the way you said my giggles were sweet as you planted more kisses along my neck as I couldn't contain the pleasure that I felt from each soft kiss

Our bodies wrapped together, I was limitless and unashamed as I delicately undressed and your hands ran across my body and your lips did and I exhaled sharply as I began to notice the sensations of lips on lips and lips on skin and neck and back and chest

We did separate a few times, but you caressed my arms and rubbed my thighs and pulled me in to kiss me again ..

From hour one to hour two until 1 in the morning, we shared intimacies and laughs and sweetness and inexperience

I was free when I was most exposed and you cherished each part of me that I shared with you

You .... waited

I understand so clearly now that there was never an ulterior motive

There was never anything insidious or lustful or harmful

That this was enough for you
I was enough for you
And that I was perfect to you
"This is ok, this is perfect. I want to just do this with you"
It wasn't 'just this'

It was everything.