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May 2019 mjad

Small talks

May 2019 mjad

eileen

Small talks

Can't trust me or you
Because I am a liar

10w

Apr 2019 mjad

Pseudologia fantastica

Apr 2019 mjad

eileen

Pseudologia fantastica

I
am
a
liar

Don't lie to me

I know e  v  e  r  y   t h i n  g

Don't ask
           me anything

You'll
n e v e r
know about
                  m e

Lying to your face
I don't feel a
d
  r
    o
        p
of shame

Who is it from
My family of storytellers
A puppet father
Lying mother

Don't lie to me
I know you're lying

I'm so perfect
You don't ever notice

I'm

L y i n g

the words I speak
aren't to be trusted

the words I write
are filled with broken promises

Apr 2019 mjad

Uh Oh

Apr 2019 mjad

Loser

Uh Oh

I never know if you want me or not.

idk

#help #sad #want #love #hate #fear

Apr 2019 mjad

Did you get the message?

Apr 2019 mjad

Austin Ryskamp

Did you get the message?

I am so afraid of talking to you
Reality let loose by your venomous soft lips is hard to hear
The few messages I send have no response
The pain that ensues pursuing an answer from you is where my fear resides
Besides believing in a miracle to happen
Directing my satin sails back to clear waters
I do not deserve such a beautiful ending
Or do I?!

Wrote this one about two months ago but had it in drafts. I wanted to add more but honestly I think it grabbed that moment so well.

#noreply #hurt #fear

Apr 2019 mjad

fear

Apr 2019 mjad

croob

fear

fear, it looms
like jack the ripper.
midnight monsoon
oozes into my room -
shadows seethe and slither
like fervent snakes.
wild winds whir by abloom
in sharp, unnerving whispers,
leaving little in their wake -
fear: it takes, and takes, and takes
and rarely does it make mistakes.