I love you.

You don't know how much I love you.

I say I love you everyday, but I still feel like it's not enough.

I am a river flowing where no one knows.
I am the star that people look at but no one knows who I am.
Only you do.

I would do anything for you.
Whether it's walking through mountains,
or swimming across the ocean.
I would do anything for you.

I love you

These emotions crashes on to me and wipes me away
Just like a wave.

I love you.
I don't know how much I need to say those three words
for me to be okay again.

You don't know how much you really mean to me.

I love you.
And I miss you.

I love you.
And I will forever love you.

I love you.
And I will never let you go.
Not again.

I love you.

No, I'm not an insomniac
I'm a bird trying to find the clouds
where my head rests
I fly until my wings get tired
but I land on the wrong cloud
so I am covered in water vapour

I start falling
and I land on the wrong cloud, again
I can't move my wings
I can't move anything
Something is chasing me
my fears

I fall
this time
hoping to land on the
right cloud
where my head rests

I do
I rest in peace.

I don't know how many times
I cried myself to sleep
With scratched wrists
And bruised cheeks
Every single time I looked at the mirror
I wanted to erase
the image of my reflection of my face
I never wanted to remember how I looked
or how I acted
or how I talked

Self asteem wasn't my issue.

It was anger within.

I want to be blind.
So I don't have to see the mistakes
That I make.

I want to be deaf.
So I don't hear the criticism
People have to say.

I want to be mute.
So I don't scar the hearts
Of the people who love me.

It's okay
If your hand gets tired of holding mine
It's okay
If your fingers let go and decide to draw the line
It's okay
If your nails dig deep into my skin
If they leave scars on my hand when you finally say goodbye

Because atleast I'll have the scars
To remember you by

031916
The day I fell in love with you all over again.
The day we danced our hearts out.
The day you met my parents.

Don't let me go
I said
I won't
You said

How beautiful is it that we
Were just friends
Telling our stories

Now
I decided I want to spend
The rest of my life
With you

031916
Everything was a blur
But the only thing I remember is
Us
On the dance floor
Me
Crying
You
Infront of me

While this was happening
My body felt refreshment
A wave of renewed love
That made me come back to you
At the end of the day

This was the best night of my life.

Things to be aware of when you date a overthinker :

One. They will always find the hard way around simple things. Two. They will always be worried about little things. Three. They have what if's for everything. Four. Leaving something behind is like the end of the world. Five. They worry about everything. Six. They'll try to fix what's wrong. Seven. They realize they can't fix it so they just forget it. Eight. But they can't forget it so they have to come back to it. Nine. This happens until they die. Ten. They won't let it go until it's fixed. Eleven. They say sorry a lot. Twelve. They can't sleep. Thirteen. Because they always have something to worry about. Fourteen. They don't like making big decisions. Fifteen. They regret almost everything instantaneously. Sixteen. Existential crises are everything. Seventeen. They will never forget an embarrassing moment. Eighteen. If you don't reply to them quickly, they'll think you're dead. Nineteen. They think of death all the time. Twenty. They plan out how they'll **** themselves if they ever did. Twenty one. Not just themselves, but other people too. Twenty two. They want to burn the planet if they get one thing wrong. Twenty three. They jump to conclusions.