2015...i come into you
with an open mind...
knowing that your not going to be perfect
that you might even be a bigger ***** to me than 2014
...but im having faith
that i'll find new forms of happiness
...new experiences to learn from
...that it wont be a repeat of 2014
but a redemption
that what i lost
will be found
through faith
in the mighty name of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ
...Amen

2014 had its nice moments
but was a total ***** to me
but i know it was out of love...
I went through heartbreak, anxiety, insecurity, the struggle to find myself,...i learned new things
about people
myself
and...
i just want to say thank you
thank you for being such a ***** because without this year...
i wouldn't of known what direction i stand in
what i need to look forward to
and most importantly...self strength
so thanks for being such a *****

Having joined this website again for the...
like 15th time..
i finally feel like poetry is me
i don't feel like it's a way or excuse for me to rant on about my problems
when i write poetry...
i feel the thundering of thoughts just bolting up a storm in my mind
...its like im in a trauma state
its like once i'm writing it's almost impossible to stop
but joining this website...
has given me a little hope
a little...
like all my faith is in God but what i mean is
Im finally feeling like pieces are coming to me
that something belongs to me
and I feel somewhat complete
...ya know

How does a morning so delicate so perfect...
turn into such a miserable day
to insecurity
to me shaming every single thing
carrying around a frown for fashion
....i guess i really want to sit up in here like i usually do
and mumble, rant on for hours about my so far **** day
find the answer i'm looking for than come back 3 hrs later
i guess my real thing is
is letting life flow
and i know exactly what that means...

You use to wonder how it was like to live a perfect life,
A life without worries, without struggles, without darkness and sadness
But then you realize that it is all apart of life itself.
You must learn from your experiences, good or bad.
Even if it means to move on from something that you gave your heart to.
Even if you want to show the darkness to the light,
Leave it in gods hands to bring the truth out.
In the end you just want to be free.
Free with the ones you love
......just free and happy.....

I can feel the warm ******* embrace
I feel the flowers slowly beginning to sprout...
where darkness overshadowed
.....
the faith has taken over
and i feel it
it's real
God is real