To those horrible nights,
To those stupid fights.

To your dumb lies,
To the hours i’d cry.

To the harsh texts,
To the words ill never forget.

To all my tears,
To all my fears.

To seeing you cheat,
To excuses I can’t beat.

To loving you,
To wishing you loved me too.

To wanting you always by my side,
To wanting to run, and wanting to die.

To seeing you with her,
To wishing this never occurred.

To the source of all my pain,
To all the strength that i’ve gained.

To not needing you anymore,
To leaving you back at the door.

To realizing now that i’m free…
*******
**Heres to me!

Sometimes I see you in my dreams,Your warm smile, your gentle eyes.
Once in a while, I have conversations with you, though your not there.
I tell you about how I miss holding your hand when crossing the street, or how I miss standing on your shoes while we danced to "blue moon". When you were sick, you told me I was your medicine. Did I not give you the right doses of the love you call medicine to keep you here? Often I wonder if you know what my daughter looks like. Do you watch over her? I see she has the ability to love like you, which is rare.. I though no one can love like you. Can you see your big heart in her the way I can? I was so sure your heart really was made of gold, so wonderful... Yet that very heart stole you from me.

Blessed is she who comes across,
A man so pure and full of love.
Who devoutly reveres his beloved,
To miss out would be  a vast loss.


A man like mine,
Perfection in human form.
Oh how he is flawless,
A personality which endearingly shines.

He posses a touch to admirable to be factual,
A voice that makes you feel at home,
A smile that says you’re not alone,
A body so desirable, so ****, so practical.

A love like the finest of wine,
Each day it gets better,
Nothing but better,
A love so sensibly divine.


When you have a love like ours,
You’ll learn there is fate,
None of this is fake,
Days seem only hours.


Blessed is she who comes across,
a man such as mine,
A love so divine,
to miss out would be a vast loss.