All she wants to do,
is die.
Broken and beaten
on the inside.
All she does is cry,
because she's trapped,
in her own mind.
She screams,
she begs,
but there's no one there.
She tries to talk,
but she gets shut down.
All she does is fight,
to be told the fight,
isn't enough.
All she does is hold on,
all she does is hurt,
but you'll never know,
it'll never show.
Cause she stands on her own.
She'll wear her smile,
eyes bright and smile wide.
You'll never know all she,
does is hurt.
Cause she'll never let it show

I trusted you,
you were my friend.
I cried to you,
I confided in you,
I was your friend.
I trusted him,
until the very end.
I tried my best,
I gave my all,
but you thought you,
were to good.
I can't believe the two of you,
could do this.
I can't believe the two of you,
could be so sick.
I gave him everything and more,
but he still walked out that door,
straight into her arms.
He took me for a fool,
used me to fix his heart.
Now it's fixed,
he tore mine apart.
I never wanted to love him,
but I fell so hard.
I never trusted a female,
until you came into my life,
and you ******* me.
I can't believe,
the both of you.
I guess that's life,
y'all deserve each other,
I wish you the best,
but because of both of you,
I'll never trust again.

He loves her in ways,
that made her weak.
She loves him in ways,
you wouldn't believe.
Began as a mess,
became something odd,
something the fairy tales,
couldn't understand.
He showed her the light.
She showed him the wild.
They didn't think it,
would end somehow,
but lies were told,
trust was broken.
A heart wasn't sure,
if it could truly be open.
You may believe it was him,
but it was not,
it's her own fault.
She can't help but,
Look back on the memories formed
dancing
kissing
calling each other names.
She just smiles to herself,
She knows she had,
that bitter sweet love,
people crave so much.
Sadly it ended,
but she has no regrets.
Cause she is his,
always has
always will.
It's the bitter sweet ending
to a bitter sweet love,
but she knows it's right
and she'll be strong.

When I look at her,
all I see is beauty.
Yet there's something,
behind it.
I see an angel,
with broken wings,
and heavy heart.
I see an angel
who's fallen apart.
She no longer smiles,
she no longer laughs.
She's secretly hiding her heart.
Yet she stands tall,
still she fights,
she holds on
with all her mite.
Her head still high,
though her halo's cracked.
She tried to move on,
and not step back.
Her soul is black
it's been burnt,
yet she holds on.
For what?
I don't know

Where has the time gone?
Two years gone so fast.
Where did we go wrong?
We were so sure it would last.
Hate and resentment fill us.
Why is this so?
Your heart no longer beats with mines,
it's killing me so.
The sweetest conversation,
turned to a war of words.
I can't say where we went wrong.
Hell I don't even know!
Things changed so fast,
we didn't even know,
until that last blow hit,
and we were on the floor.
Tearing our hearts apart.
I keep replaying over and over,
still no clue where we went wong.
A love so innocent, just gone.
A bond so strong, just broken.
Hearts so sure that it would last,
are now lost.
No one knows why it didn't work,
no one knows, the hurt I hurt.
How could you hold me close,
just to let me go?
I did everything I could,
to make it work,
losing myself just to please you.
Now I have to pick up,
the pieces you broke.

I stared into those,
brown eyes.
So intoxicating and deep.
I slept next to those,
brown eyes,
they made me feel at peace.
I saw those,
brown eyes shed tears,
constantly weep,
but I still loved those,
brown eyes so tender and deep.
Now I'll probably never,
see them again,
and it makes me weak,
my body's trembling,
my heart skips beats,
my stomach is churning,
I can't sleep,
because all I want is,
those brown eyes,
so tender and sweet.
It's gonna hurt for a while.
I stared into those brown eyes,
Somehow I thought I'd found mine,
An eternal peace of mind,
Body and soul
But no,
It wasn't so
For what I found beneath the surface
Was shattering to my heart
A simple node in time
That made things sublime
But now I see
That you wanted me to be
Just an escape,
From your painful reality.
I know that for sure,
those brown eyes,
will haunt my dreams,
forever more.

I'm trapped.
I can't breathe.
Losing hope,
I'm falling deep,
"I hope you stay,"
silently I pray.
My love for you,
won't lead me astray.
I need you now,
more than I can explain.
Just hold me close.
Promise me,
please promise me,
you won't disappear.
I'm fighting to stay,
fighting to love,
just hoping someone,
will help me up.
Losing my faith,
day by day.
Sometimes I don't,
believe that you'll stay.
My heart is broken,
pieces are gone.
My darkest days have,
taken my crown.
I no longer smile,
no longer laugh.
I'm trying to hold on,
with all my heart.
I hope you understand,
that I mean no harm.
It's just my darkest days,
have taken arm.
Trying to hurt us,
that's what they do.
My darkest days are
coming through.

Your lovely kisses,
your amazing smile.
How could I forget?
It caught my eye.
Now as days pass,
I can't live without you,
your annoying laugh.
Who would've thought,
We'd end up like this ?
Smiling, holding each other,
in pure bliss.
I'm not saying it's easy,
it's far from a fairy tale,
but you're my Prince.
You drive me up a wall,
you drive me mad,
but honestly I can't stand,
being far from you,
not in your bed.
Cause you're my fairy tale,
with chapters still unread..

You promised you'd always stay,
You promised to keep me safe,
but where did you go?
I'm so ******* alone.
Father's Day is coming soon,
where the hell are you?
You left me,
trapped with no way out,
no one by my side.
No one to show me,
what love is about.
You abandoned me,
all this hate fills me.
I can't blame you though,
you just died.
I miss your hugs,
your annoying laugh.
You were scary to most,
but to me you weren't.
I love you so,
I wish you could return.
Father's Day is coming,
the day all fathers are praised,
but to me?
I wish it is the day,
my heart gets erased.

She stands in front  the mirror,
looking from head to toe.
She stands in front the mirror,
as the tears flow.
Why can't she be pretty?
Why can't she be strong?
Why can't she be the one,
that anyone wants?
She stands in front the mirror,
all broken and alone.
She stands in front the mirror,
hoping for a home.
Just wishing she could,
walk through the glass,
to another relm.
Closing her eyes,
She begins to dream.
A life.
A love.
A hope,
for better it seemed.
She looks up,
and hope something's changed.
Sadly only a broken girl staring,
into the mirror remains.

When we lay in bed,
I feel at peace,
just laying there,
you next to me.
I feel so loved,
I feel at ease.
When we're together,
you take me from reality.
Baby it feels like,
a fantasy.
When you hold me,
I feel like a queen.
You make me smile,
you make me dream,
but is it just a dream?
Is it just a fantasy?
You don't make me,
question my place.
You don't make me,
feel small.
All I want to do,
is wake up next to you.
All I want is to,
give you it all.
I just want,
be your peace.
I hold the rose,
as I drift to sleep.
Baby please tell me,
is it all just a fantasy?

I wish it didn't hurt so much.
I wish it didn't hurt,
when you don't look at me.
I wish it didn't hurt,
when you don't hold me.
I wish it didn't hurt,
that you're no longer,
attracted to me.
I wish I knew.
I wish I knew,
where I went wrong.
I wish I knew why.
I wish it doesn't break me.
I wish I could just ignore it.
I wish I could be good enough.
I just wish,
I was prettier,
maybe a little sexier.
It may seem shallow but that's
how it goes.
We all wish someone would love us
no matter how much it hurts.

She lays at night,
her breath quivers,
fighting back tears.  
She wonders,
is he, her's or,
is his heart with another,
her stomach twists,
at the what if's.
Closing her eyes,
she replays that night.
Liquor laced words,
slipped out his lips,
as his eyes filled with tears,
and silent hope filled her,
broken heart.
She thought just maybe,
things would go right.
Until sober words brings her back.
She fights to hold on,
but how long would
like be enough?

Something doesn't feel right,
deep in my heart.
Something doesn't feel right,
cause nothing tore us apart.
We laughed,
we prayed,
we argued,
we loved.
I gave you everything,
how come it wasn't enough?
Deep down I don't,
believe you'll just,
leave like this.
Deep down I don't,
believe you'll,
hurt me like this.
I maybe in denial,
I maybe in insane,
but baby you're my,
soulmate.
How do I know?
My soul cries for you,
it still feels,
connected to you.
I feel like you need me,
just can't reach out,
but baby I believe,
without a doubt.
You're my soulmate,
In life and love,
cause when we kneeled,
down to pray.
Every doubt washed away.
I still pray for you,
I honestly do.
I keep praying,
my soul makes it back to you.
I just need a sign,
something really calm,
cause I know,
there's no getting over you,
I can't even if I tried.
I still feel your soul,
crying out for mines,
but like I said,
I may be crazy or just in denial.

I promise to love you,
even on your darkest days.
I promise to hold you,
when your thoughts,
lead you astray.
I promise even though,
we may fuss and fight,
my back would never turn on you.
I promise to kiss you,
after a hard day.
I promise I'll light up your dark,
so you won't be blind.
I promise to kiss away,
every fear you may have.
I promise you this,
I promise you forever,
I promise you won't be held back,
not now,
not ever.
I promise no matter how hard,
it gets,
we'll still stand tall.
I promise we're in this to the end.
This promises,
written as a vow.
These promises are scared,
not meant to be ignored.
These promises are ours.

One day she's fine,
She feels like she can do anything.
The next she's lost,
losing site of what she want.
One day her smile,
shines so bright,
the whole room stares.
The next she's sad,
and in tears.
Her life a constant battle,
a push and pull.
She tries to find balance,
tries to hold on.
She gives her all,
even though she doesn't want,
to give any.
She tries to stand,
but that weight is on her,
pushing her down.
Yet something's trying to,
pull her up.
It's a constant tug-of-war.
A constant fight.
I hope she's finds that balance.
I hope she finds it soon,
cause she's on the verge,
of giving up.

There you laid
on my lap,
as you died.
There you laid,
holding me close,
telling me how,
you love me so.
I was so mad,
so filled with rage.
I didn't say it back.
You chose a cigarette
over your life,
you chose your vice
over your child.
Now you're gone
and I am lost.
You're not around
and I can't trust.
Hate in my heart,
not to you,
but to me.
Tears in my eyes,
as I write this.
My souls is shattered,
it's pieces scattered.
Now I'm here full of regret,
with your vice
now turned mine.
Where can I go?
This is how
I hold onto you.
This is how
I move on
This is how my heart
is scattered
singing the same old song.
I regret it now
and it'll always hurt,
but forever my king.
I'll hold you close

When I'm gone,
don't shed a tear.
Remember the times,
we had.
Remember the fears.
Remember my smile,
My laugh,
my tears.
Remember the good I did,
through the years.
Remember the time,
we snuck off to the beach?
Remember the times you,
made me laugh,
till I was weak?
Remember the fights,
and how we made up.
Remember when we danced,
on the beach.
Remember how it felt,
to sleep next to me.
Remember when you met me,
I wasn't in one piece.
Remember me,
the good and the bad.
Remember us,
and what we had.
Remember the times,
we danced and you held,
me close.
Remember you were there,
when I needed you the most.
Remember you have my heart,
and you always will.
Remember I tried.
Remember I fought.
Remember the love we shared.

I used to drink,
to be numb.
I used to go out,
until the pain stopped,
entertaining myself,
with men that meant nothing.
Just not to feel.
Then I met you,
I didn't know where,
it would lead.
I didn't know,
what you had heard,
about me.
I was scared to let you in,
but somehow you won.
Loving me better than anyone.
Now we sleep together,
just you and I.
I never thought that we would,
with our lives.
Two different people,
two different lives,
yet we melded into each other,
when no one thought we would.
It wasn't a fling,
it wasn't a mistake.
It was us,
just taking a leap,
and having faith
We've been through a lot,
I know that's for sure.
I know there's worst to come,
the battle's just begun,
but I'm here to hold your hand.
I'm here to love you,
until the very end.
You showed me so much,
what I deserve,
what I need.
I'm so glad Allah blessed me,
with you next to me.
I love you now,
I love you forever,
I just can't wait,
to have your daughter.

Is it so bad to,
wish I was dead?
Is it so bad to,
want to rid the voices,
from my head?
No one cares,
no one tries.
No one gives a ****,
if I die?
It's been to long,
I'm not strong.
I need to go,
why hold on?
Why even fight?
Cause no one sees,
the battle I face,
on the daily.
It's mine to fight,
and I don't know.
Some win,
most lose,
Sadly I think it's the
losing side I'm on

There's this guy,
with curly hair.
There's this guy,
he makes me stop,
and stare.
This guy is broken,
he sees no hope.
He just wants to,
go back and reverse,
the path he took.
He's lost,
he can't find his way.
He pushes everyone away.
He's scared
thinks he's alone,
and I'm here,
hoping he gets,
the flow.
I know where he's been,
I know how he feels,
I just wish he'll,
let me in,
to help him deal.
He seems happy,
he really does but,
deep down inside,
I know he's hurt.
He's so smart,
he's so cute,
sometimes he just,
makes me mute.
I hope he's okay,
he's been gone a while.
I hope he's alive,
I mean on the inside

To my son,
I can't wait,
to hold you close.
I can't wait,
to love you the most.
You're so perfect,
and I haven't met,
you yet.
You're so perfect,
without being here yet.
I promise to,
hold you,
no matter what.
I promise to wipe,
your tears,
that may stream,
down your face.
I promise to stand,
with you,
all through life.
I promise no matter what,
you're the light,
of my life.
You're a blessing,
and you don't,
even know.
You're my blessing.
Oh, how I love you so.
I've given you,
your grandfather's name,
because he was,
kind and just.
I hope you'll,
be the same.
I'm sorry you'll,
never know him.
He would've spoiled,
you so.
He would've held you,
and given you the world.
You may want to know,
why I'm letting you,
all of this.
It's because he,
was my world,
but he was taken away,
to a better place.
You're here now,
and you're my life.
I promise my son,
no matter what,
I have your back

Why lay here,
in this big bed,
when all I want is you?
I toss and turn,
when you're not next to me.
My hands search all night,
just hoping to feel your skin.
How could something so innocent,
mean so much?
I lay in this bed,
cold and alone,
craving your warmth,
craving your touch.
I can't sleep without you next to me,
my heart aches.
Why lay here,
in this big bed,
when you're not next to me?

She wishes she was beautiful,
she wishes it wouldn't hurt,
she wish she could have,
that small waist and
and big ****,
like those models do.
She wishes she be that girl,
she wishes you could see her,
she wishes you would think,
she beautiful again.
She's sorry she got fat,
she sorry she let herself go.
She wishes she could be more,
she wishes she be good,
she wishes she wasn't so insecure.
If only she was ****,
then you'll want her again?
If only she looked like your ex's,
maybe the game would change,
maybe then you'll want her,
maybe then you'll hold her close,
my then you'll realize she loves,
you the most,
But you can't see that,
you never will,
all she can do is wish,
and hope you'll see it still.