I had a tough therapy session, can you listen?
She said, "Talia, you can't live in the psych ward."
But what am i supposed to do when every time i drive my car i have to pull over because i can't see anything but car accidents?
I'd never cried in front of my psychologist until she said that suicidal thoughts might be something i have to live with.
She said, this is bpd.
I said thank you.
She said that if i continue to purge at the rate i am going my heart will stop before i turn 18.
I couldn't help but think that i hope it does.

Two friends
Watching the War
torn between two countries
they went on and on..
destroying each other infrastructure.
The first one was a pessimist
he said, "What a waste??
a construction followed by destruction.,"
But
Another one
an optimist said. "No,
See this way..
a destruction followed by construction..

Chances are priceless
missed takes are limitless
avoidance is countless
Like stop reading this and count less Opportunities you missed due to being scared of mistakes
more lines in this poetry than the ones you seen on a glass table
finger nails full of *******
brain seduced to love highs and avoid lows
running from life's heavy blows
took chances now drown in your consequence
white face, black lips, short tips, long dreams soon to be nightmares
mistakes will never know their true potential if you never make them
chances are hidden in mistakes so go ahead and embrace them
opportunities are golden but you are comfortable with rubies
scared to mess up so you look down and never face up
sleeping with nightmares afraid to wake up

I am the moon
I am full of life
Radiating
Then
I'm partially hidden from view
Slowly to be covered
in shadow