I long for your hands
Warm and cold
I long for your touch
I long for you
To hold
Me
Forever

I long to be with you.
To aggressively roll around in bed with you as you hold me firmly.
To breathe heavily as you kiss my neck multiple times.
Run my fingers through that extraordinary brown hair of yours.
And to have the ability to kiss those lips, oh those sweet lips.
How I would devour them.

I shall long for you
As my lungs long to breathe
Without thought
Without conscious effort
And I shall long for you
As ocean waves long to crash upon shore
In and out the tide goes
Yet constant are the waves
As is my love for you
You that I hold so dearly
You that dream of
You that I love

moments apart are an eternity
    hours together are a blur
        wrap space and time fabric
            around us forevermore

I can not sleep,
for you are not beside me,
I toss and turn,
bury my head in my covers,
wishing I could bury my head in your chest instead,
my silent tears dissolve into the darkness
that surrounds me,
as I lay there
imagining your arms holding me,
holding me tight whilst I watch you slumber,
you look so beautiful, peaceful and it's comforting,
I feel safe.

but in reality,
I lay here cold and longing,
for you, my love,
I can not sleep.

I am empty.
The void inside
Fills to the brim,
Overflows with things
I have lost.
My rationality.

These words tell my story.
The one I cant tell.
The colors I see,
Auras.
The beings I see,
Shadows.

Not one person
Feels the same.
I am proof.
Fear, Sadness,
The longing
To be normal.

Leave me be,
Or I will go
Insane.
Constant distraction.
Falling apart.
Drifting away.

Slowly.
Gently.
Slipping
Into the darkness
That consumes my mind.
Fighting for one last breath.

How do I fight myself?