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 Jul 2015 Megan Grace
brooke
Jets.
 Jul 2015 Megan Grace
brooke
earlier this year I said something like


i used to drop people
which is half true, but more of a buffer
in case things fell apart and Jetsper told
me that he didn't care if I did, it was worth
getting to know me or something that sounded
that nice and I imagine he has the sort of new
car scent, or fresh laundry, something wholly
generic but pleasing.  I went about that
all wrong, i should never preface
friendships with my past
i don't drop people
i just peel their
names out of
my notebooks
afraid to confide
in any sort of
k i n d n e s s
because i know
they won't like
my secrets.
I wrote this last December. I'm never sure how I stop talking to people.
I like this poem more than I did then.

(c) Brooke Otto 2015
 Jul 2015 Megan Grace
brooke
let's go back, you   &    I
for a momentwhetherwe
are who we are or who
we were then, with your
scotch bones and my hair
in the wind like a hundred
p a g e s out of the bible,
you               &                 i
and the parts of you that
loved me then come out
to play, to feel my two
years on your two years
as thin as breath, thick as
all the words we left
unsaid, that fall like
spoons in empty cups
lost in the chatter of
apology after apology
in smiles dropping like
warheads, but our silence
overcomes the ancient fights,
strings and tangled veins
all my lies are in order
all the things I only
sort of
told
you


i have dreams about confessing.
written in april.


(c) Brooke Otto 2015
 Jul 2015 Megan Grace
Amanda
Dr.
 Jul 2015 Megan Grace
Amanda
Dr.
Once I saw an x-ray of a heart and I was alarmed by its smallness, its translucence.
A thing we ask entirely too much of.
Quote from Laura van den Berg.
I see the dye, the feelings of my thoughts written in ink. Everything I suppress surfaces, up & up.
ah.
You will be okay. You will.
I will.
I will.
Today I wrote a song about your teeth.
They are crooked and imperfect.
Just like this. Our hands. And these
songbirds are all liars. We haven’t learned.
Flesh memory is overrated. Last night
I felt the linen, and it whispered to me
nothing. Not even the shape of you
reminds me of happiness. What is the use
of these metaphors if they can’t
beautify you anymore. No longer as fierce
as the inferno I allowed you to become.
Drowning in bedclothes, trying to understand how streams of consciousness
are becoming bodies of water. Today
I wrote a song about your teeth. And I
read it aloud to the voiceless, and now
they know what love tastes like.
Does hating your own art make you a better artist, or just stranger to your own hands?
i will see you around sounds much better than goodbye.
June 06, 2014
The feelings I felt a year ago still reside in the pit of my stomach.
 Jun 2015 Megan Grace
brooke
i have faith that i will
be enough, but will i
be enough for myself?
(C) brooke otto 2015
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