Can I dream
A wonderful dream
One of fae
Two of heartbreak
Three of redemption
My many fantasies,
All left unspoken

Is it wrong
To live in a dream
Let the dream wrap around me like a comforter,
So I may go to sleep
I see it as the sun
My thoughts the revolving planets,
Starry details thread it together
My quilt of the solar system

Of course, I know it's wrong
The bickering in my ear is constant
From peers and blood,
I duct tape my mouth shut
Imagine ripping out my vocal chords like blue and red wires,
I've skinned my knees on rocky pavement
Unconsciously prostrating myself

"Let me dream. Let me breathe"
The girl won't stop begging
Her gasps are sloppy
Her voice is carrying
How troublesome
When will it become apparent to her
Dreams are weights attached to one's ankles
She's sinking
She's drowning

Frozen snowflakes burning my soul
I’m not afraid of cold anymore
You taught me how to be a snow queen
not a fire girl that I had been
Please don’t worry that I’m walking
barefoot in the snow
follow me slow
and I’ll show
the burning footprints over the ice
I’ll keep setting fires in your cold heart
although it is falling apart
I’m both ice and fire
freezing the snow to your desire…

But I was,
Between 11 and 12.
I was a Vulcan ruled by Logic.
Chief Science Officer on a starship

Disdainful of the soft, mere humans
Who surrounded me.
Who had invaded my planet
Polluting my atmosphere with their emotions.

With indomitable desires,
With their fear and their jealousies.
With their pleas to my heart
And their illogical presumptions.