I lost her!
I lost everything belongs to her!
I lost all things that came back from the lost abyss...
I didn't look back to what I felt on that road with her...
Fierce fire was burning my wrecked castle...
Vicious Demons hovering around asking for instruction...
Ruthless Death is smelled all over the palace...
Rude Coldness was hitting my bones, taking away all my nerves...

I hit the road to nowhere, hoping that never ends..
I hit the road, hoping would end into other world...
I hit the road, hoping I would leave myself locked in that Palace...
I hit the road, running away from the annihilation happened inside me...
I hit the road, with question...

                   What possible for me out of "Love"?
23-11-2015

All over the years I lived...
Throughout things I've experienced...
I concluded that nights are the only companion to contract with...
I want to stop reading the lines of my life...
I don't want to live the predicted life...
I don't want my lines to go out of my books...
I want to sleep without waking up for anything...
                           "I can't stop thinking of her"
Recalling her last image and voice like making love at Celestial level!
Making love with pain in soul!
23-11-2015

The whole universe has been shaken!
                                     Breathes became heavy..
                                     Soul fighting chest to run...
                                     Heart about to explode...
Trust, to what...to who.. to where!
I paid my dues and lot more than that and still paying as a philanthropist!

Connection: Ghosts were my best companions, where silence was our language...

Discovery: Paths were crossed with each others, declaring another lost in new path...

Give up was not in my dictionary, I was seen once and i'm seen again. But pain is the theme that prevails now...

Faith in the unknown is fading taking me to unease state, but I feel happy. As if Irony became a new friend to share with the ***** to let the world spins around you...

Declaring a war of uncertainty and to anything else you don't feel...
I will write my own praises...
I understand how bad things will come in the way, and I won't care...
I understand that I won't live an easy life, and I will take my part in that...
I will define my world in order to be remembered, by those who passed by me and those who are in heaven!
                                       I will be the person of my Own!
22-11-2015

How on earth my "Love" landed with "The Poker Face"!
Every details of her glowing eyes speak freedom, was seen!
Every vibes of her little smile and shielded words were felt and touched...
Every unclear fear was wonder in her tone!
Every concealed happiness is breathed!
                              How on Earth she is a
                                 "The Poker Face"
How on earth I felt safe with her with her hug!
How on earth I found the lost self with her!
How on earth I'm breathing from my soul, when I'm with her!
                            Unless I'm still Dead and I'm in Dying Process!
                                                   Then
                                      It makes sense!
22-11-2015

I gazed!
Time had stopped for a minute looking at her eyes and watching her smile..
                           I gazed!
Asking her eyes, her heart for that kiss which I might die after it!
                           I gazed!
Remembering "Ya dude"!
Remembering "What the Fxxk"!
Feeling the fight between my limbs and soul over her....
It might fulfil me to:
Smell her!
Touch her face!
Be with her silence!
Hug Her!
                           I gazed!
Looking at her hands where they are taking me, and the sea behind her!

                           I gazed!
Knowing nothing except something is growing inside me!

                           I gazed!
I want the real her! Not the years of her!

                           I gazed!
Telling her with no words...
"Don't you feel me, how your love burns me!
22-11-2015

What would "Explode" looks like? Interesting to know!
Would "Explode" by my signature...
How would "Explode' be seen!..
How would "the discussion between heart and spirt" be perceived!
Hallucination... Maybe!
Rebelion... Could be!
Depression... What the Hell!
Lonely Nights... It doesn't matter!
All those might be seen, but I was not seen!
The real me was still not seen!
The Real Bleeding of Soul and honest heart!
I would love her and tell the whole world!
I would be Crazy...
I would be Messy...
I would be whatever they think...
                               But
I won't harm my heart anymore..
I won't go through silent heart....
I won't go through human contexts of what is right or wrong!
I won't "explode"...
                          I am simply alive...
                          Simply Breathing...
21-11-2015

Walking the road with her, not feeling my body or the things around me!, as if everything paused for understanding what is in the air!
Walking the road with her, and the only longing was to disappear from world so she won't see the pain my body hold!
Walking the road, I couldn't see a thing that belongs to me except the love I have for her!
Walking the road, seeing that my love to her is going so fast although it didn't started...
Walking the road with her, wishing not to end... looking to my watch asking God to take the tears of that heart, that beats in joy for the first time after ages...
Walking the road with her....
Eyes were looking away somewhere!...
The black hair that I want to touch, like a dark night!...
Lips how they are moving..
The tone how going low and sad...
Her silence, that invites me to say why?...
Hands and viens, how thin they are and warm...

It is a lonely night that i fear from!
Such a lonely day that I'm glad that I survived...
Walking the road with her, all my limbs running to its world!
I don't know why the whole being of me pushing me to have that hug and kiss!
The fear that the hug and kiss would take my life to Hell...
23-11-2015