If I have no place to sleep, then where to go?
If all places are clod, what the point of sleeping?
If "Go" is not a direction, then will I end into nowhere?
All my sleeps where with no sense...
Sleeping in spot and my soul searching for its place!
I'm not afraid!
I'm not anymore belong to those boundaries....
I need peace within me, for me!
I long for the hope i felt in love... I long to walk in my road, with happiness...
My dictionary has no "Go" and no "Sleep"!

I stood in front of her in body, but my soul behind her....
trying to run away!
Are you fine? A question, which its answer already known!
I didn't avoid her, I did only leave her alone and failed to keep her away from my eyes! my heart! my core!
My breaths became heavy
My heart beats in slow motion
My stomach is shivering
I watch every spot of her!
I looked at her ear, wanting to touch them!
I just felt I want to hug!
Am I dreaming?!

With her I lose my compass!
I Lose sensing myself...
I lose my words of logic...
I lose all my directions...
I lose my moment of peace...
With her losing is the trophy, where authenticity is gained!
with her my daydreams became reality!
All those losses became the power I was missing!
The Power of Heart, who was in ICU heading to death!
The Lost Love, who give up the hope to rest!
With her absence, like a tiny sparking star in the sky!
I became myself again!

There sitting with my papers alone!
Watching them begging me to write!
I have nothing!
All my belongings of feelings went somewhere to mystery places!
I'm sorry, I can't help it to stop my lost!
Demons are moving around me eager to sit with me!
Eager to sit with old friend!
Eager to shake cold hands!
But they don't know!
I left my body and wondering in lost island!
They don't know!
It is Empty!

Every part of me ran away!
Evey part of me buried himself in nowhere!
The theme of FEAR was there hiding behind, waiting to jump on me!
                                   And
                            She is in love!
                          But not with me!
Here DEATH sent me a gaze to shake hand with him!
The tree stopped waving to me!
The space became empty!
                          Waiting for that shaking
                                     I gazed!
And shaked the hand with the Handsome Vagabond!
The heart cried and the first time the tear kissed my face a goodbye telling me!
                          She is in love

I can't feel my heart!
He left my chest out of anger!
Telling me, why you allowed me to beat!
In the darkness I layed!
With silence I chatted!
I'm sorry to let you cried!
I'm sorry to let pain lived in you!
I hoped!
It was big for me and you were the escapegoat!
I can't breath!
My heart somewhere lamenting!

Sorry my friend to let you down!
You came in the wrong time...Wrong world.... Wrong body!
Your friend is tainted with dreadful sins that can't be forgiven by Universe!
Sorry my friend
You have no freedom with me!
You have no shelter from those lonely nights!
No warm places to hold you gently!
Sorry my friend!