How dare you intrude
Into my true oblivion
And leave yet again
Only the bare traces
Of your memories.

I dream of you, even
As I did so long ago,
And it carries me
Through a day and more,
And more, I remember.

I anointed you with the essence
of my deepest love,
my  very being was poured into
your ultimate happiness.

My burning desire was for you
to be exalted to your best,
to be in a realm where you could
surpass mere mediocrity.

Where you could encompass the
totality of unending intensity,
feel the burning emotions
etching your heart and mind.

I afforded you more
than the Lion’s share!
With  me, you could have
walked taller than any man!

With your gentle way
you weave your magic
through my heart.

How can I resist
to know your touch,
look into your eyes?

How can I not
mould softly
into your arms?

I can think of times
a thousand, places
a myriad, to want
to be with you!

I imagine your love
To be like the taste
Of wild-wild berries.

I imagine your eyes
To burn wildly
With fiery passions.

Your every breath
To make me shudder,
To make me yearn.

For your mouth
To gently whisper
Against my tears.

I cannot answer
The beckoning call
Of your love.

Nor forget your  image
So becoming
To my mind.

I hate how this love
Stretches my heart
To leave it exposed.

I hate that I
Want you to call,
Yet should not want.

And that I
Want to be with you
But dare not!

Was it my hand
So thoughtlessly
Upon your sleeve?

Or was it when
I looked up
Into your eyes?

And my hand,
Might you know,
Was not so thoughtless
Upon your sleeve!

Will you forever stay
A man of dreams?

You can never be
Included into my reality.
For one does not induce
The fall of preciousness.

Even when you are
In my gaze all day,
Even when I imagine
Your hand upon
The small of my back,
Or your eyes laughing
Into mine exuberantly.

You are painfully
None of this.

When you occupy
My state of mind
And alter my thoughts
Into wayward longings,
I cannot reach across
To establish your warmth
Into my memory.

I will pretend that no imagining
And no affinity binds me
Inexplicably and unquestionably
To your loveliness!