Things could be swept away just as easily
as the words I rain again on you.
Between a breathy verse you might turn around
to give my spoken heart its procession.
- but communication fails me with a weary tongue.
Symptoms come of a loneliness, struck with
a withering for the cold shoulder.
Meaningless, bleating it, leaving backward
to satellite.

Dawn breaks with ethereal light streaming
Through rigid trees and palest cloud
The naked lake, is tranquil, gleaming
Leaves assemble, rustling crowd.

An illumination is the Sun
Trees hum their soul song of the morn
One fleeting moment is the one
With fluttering leaves on crumbling fawn.

When delicate birds sing their song too
The trees rest for a while
To listen to the young ones’ tune
Weaved from freedom and from guile

The trees know though they are ancient,
That youth is the idyllic state
So they hear the tiny birds in patience
Whilst the trees cast the laws of fate

The birds will sigh and end their lives
All eventually
The leaves pass with fluttering cries
No one hears them but the trees.

How can I erase all my mistakes?
Can I take back every word?
All the lies and hearts I did break,
And ease those I disturbed?
My eyes all filled with regret,
As I lay alone in my bed.

Tick-tock
Went the clock
The day I wanted to stop.
I am now rejecting
every expansion of my chest
and deafening my ears.

I don't feel old.
I don't feel wise.
I don't feel like I'm one year away from being an adult.
And I certainly don't feel old enough to die.

I've lose my way of life,
I've lose the sight of the sun.

I've promised myself that I will find my way out of the dark,
I've promised I will look at the sky and see it full of dreams.


I am lonely but I am whole,
No longer an empty shell, no longer sorry and cold
Thoughts in my brain I can't explain.

I'm sorry...
That I couldn't be all you wanted me to be.
That I ruined this family, and continue to tear it apart.
That I am this mess, this huge human disaster.
That I am the daughter you never asked for..

And I know that no matter how many times I apologize,
It'll never be enough to replace all the pain I put you through.
I hope you understand, that I never meant for any of this to happen..
And that I never intended to hurt you.

I never asked to be depressed,
I never asked to get addicted,
I never asked to even be born into this world..

I understand I'm a human disaster,
I may even be a mistake to you.
But stop constantly rubbing it in my face,
I understand I ****** up..
I understand I am a **** up..
And I'm sorry, I'm sorry okay?!

You don't understand what I'm going through,
All these emotions that I've been feeling.
Like a failure, like a ******* mistake..
Like your life would be better off if I weren't a part of it.

And the more you keep throwing my own mistakes at me,
The more it replays over in my head,
The more I hear.. "You're a ******* failure, a ******* mistake."
But you don't care do you?

I understand you're hurting,
Because I'm your daughter..
And what I've put you through,
Is something a parent never wants or hopes for.

But please, for once..
Look at it from my perspective,
Feel what I've been feeling,
Ache like I've been aching..

I know there's nothing I can do,
To take back every terrible thing I did to you.
But please understand,
I'm terribly miserably sorry..

Segampang-gampang dia,
Gampang lagi awak.
Sekurangnya dulu dia usaha juga mencari.*

Translation:

So many times I tried to convince myself you actually might have cared and you didn't just use me and throw me out like worthless trash.