geminicat: Favorites

Oct 2014 geminicat

Babygirl

Mommy, help me.
Daddy, look and see!
Help, anyone, he is coursing through my veins.
He has taken my soul and wrapped it in iron chains.
Mommy, he is taking over, I'm losing all i have become.
Daddy, please, it's hard not to give in; succumb.

Mommy, i know you're sick, but please don't leave me.
Daddy, i know you didn't wanna but you left and i don't know how to be..
I am trying to make you both proud, but i feel like im failing.
I am goin to give into the monster, he is prevailing.
Mommy, please don't cry..
Daddy, please don't hate me for wanting to die.

Mommy i love you, and im sorry for the pain i put you through.
Daddy, i know this wasn't what you would have wanted me to do.
I am sorry for not being strong enough to beat the monster inside my veins.
I have been broken and he is all that remains.
Mommy, i wish you could see me grow..
Daddy, i wonder do you hear me calling you when i know the wind will blow?

Mommy I tried to tell you about the pain i was hiding.
Daddy, i know this is something i shouldn't be deciding.
I know the pain it will cause mommy and i know i will regret it later.
But the pain i feel is greater..
Mommy, i am leaving soon to be with daddy in Heaven..
Daddy, the best memories ended when i was seven..

Mommy, i am lying here in my own blood, cold as ice.
Daddy, help me, i wish i would stop and think twice!
'Get up, get help, scream, get someone to hear you..' the thoughts swirl in my brain.
But i can't there is no way to open my mouth, there is so much pain.
Mommy, i tried to change my mind, but it was to late..
Daddy, is this really what is supposed to happen, fate?

Mommy, if you're reading this, i want you to know my last thought was you.
Daddy, hold my hand, I'm scared to lose you too.
Watching my own funeral i let the tears fall.
I see your face and i scream your name, but you can't hear my call.
Mommy, i love you and im sorry i had to cut my life short.
Daddy, mommy will die without my support..

Mommy i was selfish and thought of myself before you..
Daddy, do you think she will ever forgive me for what i had to do?
I will always watch over you from the stars above.
Sending you peace with the sight of a mourning dove.
Mommy, i am always in your heart..
Daddy, this is what was supposed to happen from the start...

Oct 2014 geminicat

Burning

Oct 2014 geminicat

Eleanor Rigby

Burning

I can't see you today
I'm busy burning.

F.Z.N

#burning #see #today #busy

Oct 2014 geminicat

Something's wrong

Oct 2014 geminicat

Jessica

Something's wrong

Something's wrong when I fall asleep at 9 and wake up in the afternoon
Something's wrong when I spend my day confused not knowing what to do
Something's wrong when I start doing things I never knew I could do
Something's wrong when your face is the only thing I can draw
Something's wrong when poems are the only way to say what's true
Something's wrong when life's so beautiful yet it seems so blue
Something's wrong when I close my eyes in my prayers and pray for you
Something's wrong when crying is all I do
Something's wrong when everyone looks and asks "what's wrong with you"

Something is wrong and that thing is you
Something's wrong and it's the way I think of you
Something's wrong and it's the time I chose you
Something's wrong cause I know it won't be true
Something's wrong but I'll hold on to you
Something's wrong and it's dreaming of you

Something's wrong and it's loving you.

#love #wrong

Oct 2014 geminicat

Lips on Lips

Oct 2014 geminicat

Light it up

Lips on Lips

I need the the feeling of lips on lips
To patch the damage done
I need you to repair me with your touch
Break my walls one by one

Oct 2014 geminicat

phone calls

Oct 2014 geminicat

soliloquist

phone calls

you type:
call me
and it almost always sounds like
you're choking
on the hauntings of the day.

my heart is racing,
heavy breathing
as i punch in your
number and i
still get startled when
it starts to ring.

but once you utter: hello,
everything falls apart
and time slows
and the world stops turning
for that split second.
for that one moment,
your shaky hello
tells me so much more
than you have ever said to me
when others are with us.

you become my everything.

but then when the call ends,
and you whisper a goodbye,
the thoughts start to fill me up again
and i start to miss you almost immediately.
in that one hour,
you have made me forget
all that was sad and wrong in my life.
when you go to sleep,
i just want to die.

THANK YOU FOR THE TINY MOMENTS OF BLISSFUL PEACE

Oct 2014 geminicat

I Believe in Words

Oct 2014 geminicat

Alex Fountain

I Believe in Words

Words are weapons.
I believe in the strength words possess that gives each sentence the ability to build up
just as easily as tearing down.
Words can leave
cuts that no band-aid can cover,
wounds that not any number of trips to the hospital can cure,
scars that time cannot heal--
do not tell the victim of bullying that words don't hurt as much as
sticks and stones.
I believe in the authority of words and their
power
that can be the difference between life and death.
Telling an individual to **** himself is *not a *joke,
telling an individual to **** himself is not funny,
telling an individual to **** himself may be the permission he was waiting for to finally escape the consuming burden he calls his life--
do not tell the mother of two kids minus one who lost her son to his own hand that actions speak louder than words.
I believe in the healing magic that occurs when the right words are arranged in the right order.
Words are made into sentences,
sentences into paragraphs,
paragraphs into pages,
and pages into books that evoke every kind of emotion and
lock the reader between those pages--
do not tell those whose friends are made out of paper that they require friends made out of flesh.
For every individual there are two types of sentences:
a sentence that can destroy and a sentence that can mend.
*I believe in words.

Oct 2014 geminicat

Anxiety

Oct 2014 geminicat

Alexia Côté

Anxiety

Someone just said something about me,
It’s starting to drive me crazy,
Oh please don’t make it start again,
This isn’t a feeling that can be supported by any men,

My thoughts are beginning to race,
At much too fast of a pace,
I keep trying to make it stop,
I can already feel myself drop,

It’s called anxiety,
Oh there goes gravity,
Here comes insanity,
And everyone’s pity,

I’m starting to lose control,
I can’t feel myself as a whole,
I need help,
I need help,

Here we go again,
I can’t wait for,
The moment when,
My head stops its own war,

It’s called anxiety,
It’s not ending anytime now,
It’s being juged in our society,
It’s not something we should allow,

It’s called anxiety,
Oh there goes gravity,
Here comes insanity,
And everyone’s pity

#anxiety

Oct 2014 geminicat

anxiety

Oct 2014 geminicat

Taylor

anxiety

anxiety comes as a haywire mind
a situation in your head
worlds away from everyone
words unsaid
scared to be anyone, much less yourself

but most of all
it comes
and it never really leaves.

#anxiety