There was a time where I'd look in the mirror and saw pain, a heart that was used in vain...I saw someone who visited and wanted to stay. From every angle I saw that she was battered, betrayed, alone and scarred, her heart was cold and hard.

I lived a thousand lives, a woman who was crumbling yet a fighter inside, a beauty who stood out and a part from a world so deadly, but she had her ashes, her own past to bury.

She was me, I refuse to play victim by the hands of criminals, who tested my whole being, my existence spoke words and I stood for what I believed in, and a kept woman broke away, she prevailed.

S.B

I wasn't prepared for the blow, the hard hit in my chest.
I guess your body was in demand, my urges for your love
was gone as another claimed your heart and laid my dreams
and passion with you to rest.

To choose is what I'll never ask of you to do, If I had meant
anything at all to you.
...how does one cope, how does one mend a shattered heart and
broken dreams...how could I believe the words you speak.

I hope she loves you, I hope she breath the air you
breath. I hope she sees wonders in your eyes and with you
live a thousand lives.

I hope you gave her the chance you deprived me of, to exhaust
your soul in pure love...I guess with all the selflessness I
showed to you was never enough.

S.B

I gasped in ****** pleasure, he ran his hands over the most feminine parts of my body.

He was closed on, I gripped his arms so mean as my body shivered. I braced back as he cupped my cheek to stare in my eyes and again...my body rocked wild.

I needed him, and I needed him now. Bodies slammed to the wall as he slowly thirst his way to heaven, he groaned so softly then I knew it was going to be a long night.

His kisses were so deep, he pounded harder... And harder, pleasure that put me on peeks.

We spoke languages that only the soul could understand, I gave him all powers as he held my hands.

He chained my neck with kisses, ******* he ****** on that gave me pleasure.

...there, we rocked in ecstasy, as we both breath heavily.

Why shouldn't we stay, he begged me to stay. I lost my mind when I felt his body visiting places and having me feeling like I was going crazy.

I was bounded to him...he had to know. He yanked my hair and whisper words that convinced me he was going mad.

He exposed his rush, his wildness when he gripped my hips sending fire to my soul and tighten thighs while watching him explode.

S.B

Goodbye, he said. I knew at that time I'd rather be dead.

How attached I've become to something that never belonged to me.

How could this be?

I covered lips so soft in red lipstick, yet I wasn't prepared.

I fought tears that burned my eyes...to not reveal itself.

It was time for him to go home...I needed him to stay, but she needed him more.

I knew deep down that there was nothing there for me...but so much that was here for you and only you. You knew.

You saw untameable passion so deep in my eyes, It hurts for you to stare...but my dare, It's time for you to go home.

Our last set of days have come to an end, I won't pretend as if I never saw it coming because I felt it.

We were wrapped up in sweet secrets.

Is she beautiful, does her touch set you on fire...gently breaks your heart, does she drives you wild?

I won't hold on any longer...I'm gonna cry and tear myself apart but I promise I will get better...maybe, who know's

...All I know, is that it's time for you to go home.

S.B

The empty room filled with dust had me caughing, I ran fingers over dusty furniture's that led me back to that time.
It seemed so unreal...the way we held out till dawn. Where the old bed-head stood was where we first made love...I saw u, you were right there.

Nights I use to ran off with you, to a sweet escape just to feel your warm embrace. We shared skittles and laughters, we never meant to scare our parents.
But the thought of getting lost with each other was fascinating.

I snapped back into the present by the scent of old cloth, they were covered in paint...we left our painted hands printed on white T-shirts.

I miss you so much it hurts. Don't wonder why I came back here to this old cabin. We made life easy here, how could I forget.

These lingering memories stayed with me,  we built this...this was where we had our first kiss.

S.B

The place I once considered paradise is now infested with parasites.
To get drowned In sorrows is inevitable, because a land so beautiful is now running miserable.

I am crying out, this world cries out in need of a solution...a redemption.
Blood that is screaming from the earth, souls that are forced, a resolution we need.

It's nothing but master destruction, that's what it has been so far in year 2017. Jamaica we pray, we shall prevail. Blood thirst criminals who roam the streets snatching lives, women had become preys.
vanishing out of sight.
We can no longer stroll in the nights.

I fell to my knees in despair, with scornful memories of this year. My beautiful land is being destroyed. From where I stand, we are victims, captured in our own land.

This world is going mad, and no one truly understands.


S.B

What will it be, what will it cost...hurting him because you are hurting me.
My mother is ill, and deep down I know I'm not handling it well...I can't handle this pain and life is so faded, all is given with nothing to gain.

To be in so many places fill with different faces...so why is it that I feel so alone, why do I feel so cold.
My father had been doing the most, and the man that I am in love with is now a ghost.

My heart is heavy, the burden I carry it is all too much. I've become friends with these demons in my head, because at nights it becomes so silent and I'm afraid of the truth.

I'm hurting.


S.B