"It's just a pinch,
you soon won't feel,"

says the brain.

"It's just a pinch,
I'd soon get used to it,"

says the one that
beats
and is
beaten.

It was raining
and we were trapped
under trees
when out of the blue
you said
love is so hard.

I silently smiled
and caught some
raindrops through my
opened palm...

and sincerely whispered
my wish unto sky.

It won't be long I'm quiet sure
Relief will come after the night.
These million sighs with tears in flow
Will soon gets tire without a flaw.

It won't be long I knew it true
Beneath the pain I had it thru.
These blades of scars will surely fade.
I'll fake a smile but true in a decade.

I'll now turn my back
I now won't come back.
In this place of dark when moon hath hid
The same hour you waved for endless byes.

I wanted to write
a letter
put all my feelings
no color could describe

I wanted to write
a letter
and tell how much
I cried
at nights

I wanted to write
a letter
and shout all
the love and pain
I couldn't tell
you

I couldn't,
I wouldn't
because I know
I shouldn't.

I just wanted
to write
you
in a letter
fold it in a half,
seal it

and then
leave it there

between the pages
of the most
painful lines
of my old
fave book

-to remind me that
this story - our story
wouldn't take its risk
to reach the happy
ending.

I wonder where,
and how,
and in what form
shall we meet
again...

It's when you learned
how to let go
of all dusts
that makes you fill
your jar with stars.

I never knew it
until I've seen
an entire galaxy
thru his eyes.

I want to see you smile
and collect all feelings
it will give
put it in my pocket
and keep it
there
forever.

Still using the same
language you taught me

and perhaps the very reason

why no one
understands
how painful it is
beneath the surface.

I borrowed a moment
from an old clock
and asked Goblin
to spare me some time.

Just wanted to mem'rize
your happiest smile

and be it the last thing
I'd see

to let all go.

She can no longer
hold on the pain;
it lingers through her bones
and within

So she came to rivers
and cried all out

as she made sure
all drops will flow
along the coldest waters

that'll never come back
her chest
ever
again.

Let it hurt.
For it is no longer love
when it doesn't hurt anymore.

Let it hurt.
But when it is only pain
love no longer exist anymore.

So let it hurt,
let it even bleed,
let it dry all your tears..

then
let it go

Let thy river flow
and wash all painful twigs
thy heart had been torn with.

Grow in places thy universe
hath planted thee in.
Hold thy roots to the ground;
nourish thy leaves through the sun.

Bloom and bear fruits,
and let those in need take all of thee-

thy fruits to the hungry,
thy blossoms to those who love,
thy leaves to the breathing,
thy seeds to the soil.

Until then,
the new thee thy old roots
were rooting for

shall sprout.

Which one's the fastest?

-Light.

My Science teacher told me that.

Though he never warned me
about what comes next.

Now I hear nothing
but thunders inside-
like a hammer nailing
my chest.

The same sound
I am left with
on rainy days.

It's something real, yet intangible;
something no one could ever touch
while everyone could surely see and feel.

We feel it like breeze,
we see it like bubbles.
For a moment it was there,
and then in a blink it was gone.

I hope that
when it touches you,
you embrace it so tight.
So tight before it disapears;

And when you see it,
I hope that you won't miss
to cherish it-
to look at it,
to memorize its corners,
to hear how it sounds like,
to appreciate how it looks like
before it vanishes.

For this precious thing
comes in a form different
to what it'll be
when it comes back.

You'd only meet
one of its many faces
once.

So please...
when it's there in front of you,
feel it.
Just FEEL IT.

I love him
like I used to love
sunshine
despite being
a rainmaker.

I love him
like how dandelions bloom
only to be blown by winds.

I love him
that I forgot
how footsteps strike
straight to pain
when it sounds
like fading

and fading

and fading

I'd keep on coming back
to that one same shore

in hopes to still
feel the prints we made
through sand

and a constant pray'r that
our Mighty sea
would sail you back to me

no matter how the wind
pulls us apart.

So much stories to read
and ours is my fave
to tell

Sometimes I whip
through it
but most
I ponder to live.

Love came
to heal
an old scar concealed

only to bleed
again

in hopes
of stitches
from thread
in loops.

I lost the love
I thought I deserved
until it came
in a form of something
I wasn't expecting
it would be.

Now I'm crying
in a form of tears
I haven't shed
before.

The wind blew down
On the entire place it held.
Leaves fell down from branches
It’s autumn; an ending again.

The season hath changed
For reasons we’ve seen.
But a farewell waves
I’m scared again to give a peek.

Years ago we held our hands
This tree of strength, it witnessed all.
We took an ought; a promise of innocence
With our young hearts, we thought it all.

‘Twas all been done; the season had ended.
Yeah, we’ve now in different roads.
But under the same sky we stand
With hearts unwanting to look behind.

‘Twas all been gone; the last leaf had fallen
A new will sprout; a beginning again.
Life is a cycle; it ends and starts.
But love for me won’t dare; for ‘twas never been round.

She adores the moon
like no one could.

so when she asked
had he found love,

he told her how lovely
the moon shines
above.

I wrote your name
on a piece of paper
traced all the letters
and spelled all the pain
I kept buried deep within.

Perhaps I must send you
a letter today
and be it a reminder
of how cupid once
pulled an arrow
for you and me

ten years ago

on a sunny
Valentine's day.

love is
nothing but trust
when trust is nothing lays
in a lie

it’s the day
the very first day
he told me
he loves me

I believed
I believed
At least I did

Just before
He lost
All the trust
In a lie.

They all come in different moods
like the ones we see in all
different faces on streets
we walk on every morning

But I know someone
who owns all of its faces.
She keeps them in a closet
hanged one by one
so it will be easier for her
to pick which best suits her day.

And oftentimes
she chooses her most favorite one-

that one with a perfectly
curved lips
teeth shown
blush on cheeks
hair untied

with eyes that say:
"Hold on a little longer."

Those same eyes I always see
behind all different faces she wears
in front of her shattered mirror
every morning.

She had outgrown
places she once thought
she'd die leaving behind.

Now she had ceased all pain
as she seizes her days
flipping her wings
above all winds.

I started my day
with tiny million reasons to stay.
But the day's done
and the felt of being in pain
tasting billion reasons to leave
hath ended my day.

So I did
what not my heart desires.

a lil girl asked her mom
one summer  night,

"Mom, why can't we just
love those you love us
and unlove those
who don't?"

glittered eyed
her mom answered,

"My child,
truth is...

it isn't love
until it demands
no love in return.

it isn't love
until it is painful."

Music's my greatest comfort
until one day
all songs' lyrics
remind me of you.

I am this tiny blurry
light at night
pinned near to your
so-called glowing moon.
Had been undoubtedly compared
to how she not blinks
in your so-called darkest night.

But nigh...
your glorious queen leaves
and in thy coldest side
I never left.

I am a no-doubted
so far point
as to compared to her.
But I never get tired
of making
a lifetime spent of blinking,
sending the brightest light
I could give
from my own unknown galaxy
to your oh-so-famous one.

You are the aftermath
I feel whenever rains end-

the opposite of positive
that repairs
my brokenness.

I loved how
you throw
all your arguments;
how your wrinkled
eyes smile
when you were
really happy
or how you not
fight back the tears
when you're upset.

even your
wildest dreams,
I heard it all.

I know your
sleepless nights;
I felt all
your heartaches.

Too bad
I felt worst
when you
fin'lly found
who you were
looking for.

You see,
It's never
easy to be
happy for
someone
you always
loved.

I never thought I could be at my best
when I learned how to sew all the rips
my heart hath gone thru.
Never had I imagined
how good I was in concealing
all the emotions I had to make thru.
Never had I noticed
how my hands ached
for not wiping a single tear
my eyes have kept.
Never had I let him see
how badly beaten my soul is.

And with these...

never had I realized
how all the wounds bleed
without feeling a single twinge.

Never had I imagined
how smiles
could give us
the most
painful cuts.

Never had I imagined
how someone's freedom
could mean someone's
loneliness inside.

Never had I imagined
how letting you in
would mean
letting you go
as well.

True to a lie that man feels love.
His ego blooms when he stares at.
The night shift dirt hath turned to green
When only eyes know how to be.
Yes to a lie that we all get hurt
A burden comes when pain invades.
The truth is that a man knows not
What brain could do above his heart.
No one is a saint.
No one is an evil.
No one is so safe.
No one is in harm.
But knowing inside out’s never been rapt
For a mind that speaks dictates it all.

I mistook you for a home
so I made myself a comfort
only to realize
no person could be rebuilt
when he breaks down
and stumbles
nor could be run at
when rains start pouring.

Humans aren't supposed
to be called homes.

No home walks away when you
need it the most.

No home can be as cruel as them.

I loved him,
but I am not inlove with him.

I was inlove with the idea
of loving him.

And now I miss the idea
of being inlove with him.

They will never understand
No one will ever care
Not everyone will be listening
No heart will be willing enough to feel
I have no one but me.
Me and only me.