No I'm not
I'm not not not
I'm not finished
I've just started
I'm going to go
From strength
To strength
And more
I insist
The world
Must
Must hear
Must read
Must know
Of my work
It must

I cannot
Let go
I must
Fight
I must
Suffer
I must
Struggle
I must
Despair
Then rise
Rise
Above it
The poverty
The jeers
The OH yessirs
I will
Do it
Yes
I will
I'm crying
But
Not crushed

No matter how one fights
He cannot win
He can use any means at all
Cudgels, guns, knives, forks, pitchforks , or darts
He can puff himself up
He can rant and rave
He can cheat and lie
But
He cannot win
If there's no one there to fight/

Your mother and father
Do naughty things with each other
They do all the things we laugh about

No No they do not
Not my mother and father
They are good , they wouldn't do that

Oh yes they really do
Why do they share the same bed
You must try to understand


Look my lovely parents
Share the bed for a good reason
To be warm in the winter

Besides my father
Always , yes always
Wears his pyjamas in bed.

Of what I dream
You know full well
Of what you dream
I haven't a clue

Of what I am
Is something clear
Of what you are
Is something out there

Of what I sense
Is something so good
Of what you sense
Is well away from me

Of whom I love
Is someone like you
Of whom you love
It is not me.

Of what I dream
You know full well
Of what you dream
I haven't a clue

Of what I am
Is something clear
Of what you are
Is something out there

Of what I sense
Is something so good
Of what you sense
Is well away from me

Of whom I love
Is someone like you
Of whom you love
Tis not me

Dreaming is a waste
Beats me right down
Dreaming is a waste
Of my broken heart.

How ferdly werdly drunk am I
Well I'm not , I'm just decrepit
I'm shaking my head at my work
I hope one fine day here where it's nice , I'll be good
It's PENALTYPITSTOP

You said these words
Penelope , I am but a fool
Darling I love you
Though you treat me cruel
And you said mushily
You hurt me and made me cry
And if you leave me
I will surely die
(thanks to Paul Anka for these words)
Now you know you little sniveler
That's not true
Cos I did leave you
And I was planning
All my black stuff
Extremely fetching
For your funeral
It's just like you all do
Promise this
Promise that
You little liar
'I will surely die'
Much more like
I will surely drink
Sing to another.

Paul , I've made a small error

Oh  Paul , you have been misled
When I made you cry so much
That was just a little test for you
'Little sniveler' How cruel was I
I cannot live without you now
My cup for you overflows
My unseemingly pretense , not fair
You are my world , my everything
(thanks whoever for the last line)
How could I have tried to let you go
How very silly , the episode was
I'll be in your loving arms soon

Oh by the way
Congratulations
Upon winning the Euro millions

Penaltypitstop looks
Pretty ha ha, a joke
No ! , penaltypitstoplooks
Out to the great outdoors
Through the kitchen window
Almonds in glorious bloom
Majestic Cyprus at attention
A huge don't know what
Others lurk here and there
Blue sky with a hint of cloud
BUT, and this is a big BUT
Sheeps , yes , yes many sheeps
A German friend thinks
Sheeps is the plural of sheep
Oh well , words are words
These sheeps are not allowed
To be seen , out of my window
Someone without sense
Has left ,A ****** gate open
I'll get changed into 'Superwoman
RIGHT , here I am, and there they are
GONE !WHAAAAAT, I checked
Some kind person , has flocked them back
PHEW !

Who is this scraggy scruffy person
This woe begone urchin of words
This so called writer of poetry
Who cannot write for pregnant toffee
Who always thought of riches in pocket
But now has to eat those wastely words
No good will ever become of this work
Let penaltypitstop ride her nonsense

Who is this , I'm it penaltypitstop
Well I may indeed very well truthfully say
It is me !

Pay attention everyone said Lilliput
I have an important announcement
We're going to have a wonderful picnic
For our family on Thursday , poppits only
The groans were heard all over the palace
Are we riding there , asked Horsey Anne
No we jolly well are not
And you scrum half Zara , are not either
We're motorcading it , without staff
Another really loud royal moan
We are each taking everything we need
And that includes you ex pork of York
'OOHH NNOO' she gurgly grunted
Less of that , and NO toe suckers allowed
Nor arrive in a kiddies helicopter either
And you Wills missus more clothing
You make my  blue blood run cold
Next Thursday then , you picnickers

What have you brought asked Lilliput
Silver knives and forks hoarsed Anne
Paper plates grunted Flossy Fergie
Plastic cups , whimpered Wills missus
Lav paper for tissues, gidded up Zara
Big tablecloth bellowed Camilla
Have none of you brought food said Lilliput
'NO' they all mardily whinnied
None of us even thought about it

And you mumsy H.R.H. what have you brought

'NOBODY questions me , you pipsqueaks
LET'S ALL GO HOME NOW !

Raining hard
More and more
Stronger now
Cat ran in
Soaking wet
Making straight
For my food
Cleaned my spoon
Of all the egg
Ran away
With the shell
Where it is
I do not know
Because I write
As it is
And can't look
Other
Than my book.

Sleeping in dark corners
Away from scary light
Holds me in control zone
In the middle of the night

I'll never find the answer
In my twisted sea of hate
I've burnt all my books
No more pages to turn

Pebbles are lizards
And trees are snakes
I can see now
What it takes

I'm hiding from myself
Don't where to look
No net to save
Acrobats do your worst

I'm a prisoner of my mind
Trapped inside my maize
Can only see my cells
Floating all around

Kick it up and up
Open my shut down door
Break it down and out
Let me see what's right

It won't destroy my truth
It'll make my light bright
Show this side of the moon
I want to be all but me

Thanks for cows over the moon
And lips that might see
A little sugar in my drink
And great gulps of life

Yes I can see now
What's in my brain
I've been too long
Juggling with my pain.

Some more
Some more
Come to me
I want to see
I want to feel
I want to smell
What it is
You have for me
==========
I can't see
What is there
It's out of sight
I know it's there
But I can't see
A little bit more
Is all I ask=
==========
Come on
Come on
I'll let you in
I want to know
What you have
Closer closer
Now you come
Come into my door
==========
I want to see
What you have
It's not mine at all
Keep it close
To yourself
Never let it part
Save it , save it
Keep it by your side.

His foot slippedon the skin
A banana one of course
His arms flew out for balance
He thought wryly to himself
I'll never catch them now
For I have now , no arms
His fall carried on
Right down to the floor
'Oh' ,he said
'I'm such a beastly bore '
He threw his voice high and loud
And , immediately regretted it
Now he couldn't shout for help
No arms nor hands did he have
No means of communication
'Oh dear' he thought
For as you know
He cannot utter a word
His answer leapt to his mind
'I'll wake myself up
For this is just a dream'
But , he couldn't do it
He couldn't shake himself
He had no arms you see
So he had to sleep forever
For all eternity.

Who would believe it
Just as I had finished the hard work
Of , earnestly sharpening
My nearly ready guillotine
Also washing my scruffy neck
For a really clean cut
Suzybloodywordmuse
Praises my sodding work
Well ! I ask the whole wide world
What on earth do I do now
First I'll have to blunten it
You know , just in ****** case
I'll catch a rolling stone
And sing to it lovingly
After that I'll write some more.

Always doing things
Hand up my skirt
Down my best knickers
Inside my lovely bras
In fact !
At it forever
It'll never ****** stop
But !
The strange thing is
And so disappointingly
He doesn't do it daily
Only !
When they are on my line.

The blue mixed with the green
Then changed to vivid pink
The colours were colours but not
To be defined
was an impossible task
Colours changing forever changing
Yellow , gold , green , blue ,violet , and orange
Swirling , whirling in random complete
One look, another at this changing scene
There was he , so fleetingly there
Gone to be replaced by something bizarre
Changing shapes and colours around
Does not overtake me in despair
It's so wondrous this amazing scene
In this rainbow of various hues
Will I wake up, I hope not
Let me see this unconscious dream.

The shining knight was no light
The light that shined was not seen
The shine was not light but knight
The knight had no light to shine
The light shone from the knight
The shine was light from the knight
The knight shone like a bright light
The bright light from the knight was right
The right to shine like a knight tonight
The night was full of bright shining knight
The light was bright but not in sight
The sight of the knight at night was not bright
The night sight of the bright knight was a plight
The blight of the bright knights sight tonight , might not delight him in a light fight at the right height however slight , oh what a plight , like a flight of a kite.

They are waiting
Patiently waiting
Waited this long
Can wait some more
They know this world
Will remain in upheaval
For many a century
Or more
They know that mankind
Will self destruct
When it will be
They don't care
They are patient
They are waiting.

Where were you yesterday
I was in the woods with Jimmy
And what were you doing there
Well first he asked me to take my knickers off
Did you
Yes I did , he has such a nice smile
Did you see his thingy
What's a thingy
Have you never seen a thingy
How could I have done ,
when I don't know
What on earth is a thingy
Have you any brothers
No , but does that matter
Well you would have seen one for sure
Look if I don't know what one is
How would I know if I've seen one
I'll have to tell you
We don't have one
Because we are girls
O.K. we don't have a thingy
Will we have one each
When we grow up
Ugh ! I don't jolly think so
Who'd want one of those horrid things
Alright you've got my interest in a whirl
What do they do with them
MMM , they use them for wee weeing
Is that it ,for wee weeing
So it's like a hosepipe
Well yes but smaller
Why have they got one
And not we girls haven't
Don't know
I've just realized
Did he take his trousers down
No why should he
Don't know
But why did he ask you
To take your knickers off
Easy , he wanted the elastic
to make a catapult.

Those tears in your eyes
Showing , deep sorrow
Glistening with pain
Trickling down your face
Dripping off your chin

Your great shudder
Every now and then
Quivering of your lips
Eyes rolling in anguish
Not wanting to see

Your need for comfort
So very plain to view
There's nothing I can do
Because
You are my reflection.

Trees centralize scenes
Rivers flow over pebbles
Ever bright the sky
Even sharpen my blue eyes
Sight to be held close to heart
....
Water is hidden
Autumnal sense of being
Trees magical colour
Eternal life abounds here
Ready to be heartfelt now
....
Winds about to blow
Ice and snow follow quite soon
Never without gloom
Deciduous leaves sish sashing
Soon enough for sights delight.

When I was born
What did I know
Nothing
What did I remember
Nothing
Did I cry a lot
Don't know
Did I fill things
Don't know
What did I know
Nothing
When I am dead
What will I know
Nothing.

You play your guitar
And sing
I listen
And sometimes
Sing
Your fingers work
Selective
Of chords
Your voice
Full of rejoice
People
Enjoy your songs
Like me
And not
Because I love you
But because
You're good
Anyway
I love you.

To run away
From what's inside
Will not remove
All ones doubts

One may travel
Far and wide
But cannot escape
From inner self

Stay awhile
Think what's good
Make a move
To be alright.

My left foot
Is of a hoot
Dancing wild
Like a small child
She's my despair
Not very fair
My twigs wriggle
No, not a giggle
It shakes my bark
Not a funny lark
Leaves go brown
Making me frown
I want them green
For Halloween
I'll have to slap
That young flap
Until she's nice
With good advice
Nows she's done
I'll have my fun
Looking at birds
In their nests.

Are her troubles
So deep
Are her worries
Necessary
Her surface
Is so peaceful
Her smile
Ever ready
But
Deep down
Is inner strife
I hope
It will go away.

Walking through clouds of love
Over fields of happiness
Along rivers of rippling laughter
Smiling like the sun in the sky
My journey through my world of life

Will this road of beautiful thoughts
Last through growing of giant trees
Endless rainbows of colourful ideas
Of meeting layers of wonderful people
Seesawing through their world of life

Clinging to the ceiling of fun
Helping myself to fruits of joy
Watching whirlpools of minds at work
Sometimes floored by sheer delight
Swinging through my world of life

Sparring against deep depression
Soaring above my plight of rejection
Hoping with a lifting heart
I'm breaking out of my fragile shell
Waking up to a better world of life.

You hold me
A man
You hold me
Like a baby
You hold me
I love it
You bring
Tears to my eyes
You hold me
Like no other
You make me
So safe
Deep inside

You're so small
I'm so big
Yet
You hold me
So very tight
As In
A cocoon
Like a baby
Who needs love
And
Gets it.

Who is the colder of us now
You who were my love so deep
Or me who does not wish to speak
Are we equal in our thoughts
Do we hate one minute
And love the very next

Who was the first with evil tongue
Trying to smite with great spite
Opening wounds of long past gone
Was it me or was it you
Not so long ago ,we spoke kind words
And in a twinkle at crossed swords

Do we love or do we hate
Are they so close these extremities
This dangerous treacherous knifes edge
Why do we want to hold so tight
The very next moment ,off in the night
I know for sure , I'll never know
Why it is ,This terrible twist of love.

Why are you trying
To steal my heart
You're in for trouble
Plunging in the dart

I'm not really ready
For a consuming love
Hold off for a while
And slow down ,you dove

You know that I like you
A wonderful friend for me
But give me some time
I need it, can't you see.

Wood broken
Steel bent
Life jacket
Broken mast
One intact
Chewed up oar
Part of bow
Some of rail
Looks like keel
Flogged to bits
Was once a boat
Someones joy
The mighty sea
Did not want
This little one
To escape from
Its horrific jaws.

Your eyes
Look into mine
My eyes
Look into yours
We lay
Side by side
No words
Just looking
Into
Each others eyes
Spellbound
By
Each others eyes
We express
Our love
With
Our eyes.

Your rhythm
Has no blues
Your pie
Is in the sky
Your dreams
Have no pipe
Your bridges
Are not crossed
You look
After you leap
Your stitch
Is out of time
Your iron
Is never hot
You are all of these
But baby
I like your style.

You strike your poise so well
Look at me
You seem to say
Hair dyed two tone
One colour black
The other red
Look at me
You seem to say
Sparkling mind
Eloquent speech
Deep of thought
Look at me
You seem to say
A bad time had
Not very good
Much better now
Look at me
You seem to say
I'm me
Can't you see.

That I should not write anymore
Or do you think that it doesn't matter?