Z - Hello Poetry

Z Nov 2017

c

they say that when you find the one
you will know it
like an overwhelming sense of security
you will know

i always wondered
why i gave myself to souls that didn't care
i knew deep down that i deserved better
but day after day
year after year
i found myself in an undeniable loop
like a tear in my galaxy i was caught

one day i met someone
someone different
his skin soft and his eyes warm
for the first time i believed in fate
as cliché as it sounds
a chilled day in october
i discovered love
real love to die for
i witnessed it with my own eyes

why am i writing?
maybe a reminder to my future self of this feeling
maybe to let others know things will turn around
whatever the reason, i've found warm and honest love
it does exist

Z Oct 2017

one of these nights

a pulling towards him
reciprocating attention
such a foreign concept

all the times i was searching for someone
the ringing of silence refused
as i did not search
he appeared wearing a smile
and at that moment i knew i was home

Oct 2017

skyler

suicide

i will end my life
not today
not tomorrow
maybe not even in a year from now
but i will leave this world
by my own hand
for i was brought here
not by choice
i was created
without any consent
signed a contract to keep breathing
the signature being my first breath
so i will leave on my own terms
by my own hand
my choice

s.s

#death #life #suicide #end

Oct 2017

skyler

flirtatious

i've been flirting with death for too long
and my heart aches for him to take my hand
for his marks already linger at my wrist
so the least he could do is hold them

s.s

#death #suicide #harm #love

Z Oct 2017

without a goodbye

such bittersweet sorrow
immersed on his lips

a faint whisper from a foggy village
echoes the fidelity in my veins
my cherry dipped heart
tells me to follow him

my tongue forced still
i cannot utter but a word
my legs rooted down
i watch him leave as each second we've spent together
crumbles in my trembling hands

Z Oct 2017

layers

breaking my atmosphere

first you find terrors
boys, spiders, darkness
tell them to leave me alone
if you don't mind

when you find my family
introduce yourself
i have not seen my dad in years
nor my nana
or my papa

when you hit emotion
be sure to say hello
because here is where i spend most my nights
anger, envy, numbness

upon your arrival to friends
ask my best friend what turned her bitter
why did she drop me on a dime
after 8 years

next is past loves
don't pay them much attention
they don't care about me

I'm not sure what is at the burning core
but i know its something heavy
sometimes at night i can feel it pounding
like an animal begging to be let out
maybe why i don't open up
especially not this deep down
who am i

Oct 2017

frankie

painting myself over again

dip your brush in your sorrows
cover it in doubt and depression
paint your canvas in scars and messages of self hate
take a good look at the “masterpiece” you made.

grab a cup of water, cleanse your ***** brushes.
notice how all the black paint you have covered yourself in washes away.
dip the brush in a new found colour, the colour of happiness.
paint your canvas golden, show it what love is, love you have found within.
this is the true masterpiece.

#self #harm #depression #bettering #it #gets #better #happy #love #selflove