**** off the innocence
or the inner sins
where the guilty conscience
drinks guilt tea
consciously.
tirelessly preying on the
timeless.
time is tired.
sinking in the expired
           ..i am so uninspired.

you can’t keep the pace
but live anyway
you will love in vain
but love anyway.

with no need for a mirror to determine my reflection,
she shows me who i am,
and the nature of my essence.
she displays
me,
effortlessly.
without influence or judgement.
without adjustment
or renovation.
she's inspiration,
she's motivation.
she's stillness
without stagnance or a bit of hesitation.
-

while they're asleep
i'm at the depths with the demons;
exchanging playful threats and understanding feelings
and fears
over spirits and beers.

you’re my bestfriend,
like a side-kick made perfectly for me.
you’ve seen the deepest parts,
beneath the skin
like no one else can see.
i carried you inside,
& now my soul remains outside.
a fairy,
fearless,
magical,
unique
sent here to guide.
-
i call you daughter,
i call you light,
i call you healer of the sight.
i call you queen
my heart your throne,
i call you spirit of the moon.
being with more meanings than one,
a product far beyond the sun.
you were created out of mercy
to remind me of a love.
-
to spread and
teach the world on how to smile again.
you are my friend,
a keeping love until the end.
long as you’re here
ill be alright,
ill keep on smiling,
keep the fight.
you are my friend
& ill love you til the end.

why when i speak practical people look at me strange?
when i say "just think positively" they brush it off, am i deranged?
so accustomed to the struggle, "being broke ain't nothing funny."
as if happiness and things of value only come in form of money.
i know you cant give happiness as a payment when your rent is due.
& nothing in life is free, but should money be all that we pursue?
were we created to work our *** off, pay bills then die?
or live our lives to the fullest & appreciate the highs.
the lows are distracting,
they are the cause of struggles we go through.
money doesn't run the world, people with money do.
why do we believe that money is everything?
that it is the only thing that we need to achieve.
when with life values you become blessed, & the universe gives you everything you need.
there's beauty in the struggle because there's valuable lessons,
don't chase the money, chase your dreams because your passion holds your blessings.
don't feed into the 'perfect picture'.
why the rich become richer?
why the poor never see more?
what we really living for?
don't let money determine your happiness,
don't let it make you, control yourself.
life is full of riches, money ain't the only wealth.
speak abundance in your life,
worry less & you gain more.
find out what your purpose is,
find out what you really living for.

i got favor,
im the favorite.
innocent
yet dangerous.
i observe and i adjust.
do you believe?
or can you trust what you may never understand?

i got favor,
im the favorite.
innocent
yet dangerous.
observing,
im adjusting.
are you worthy?
are you trusting?
would you dare to understand?
am i god?
from rib of man?
am i scarce
upon the land?

its a virus,
don't leave your house.
shut-in with phones
as word of mouth.
don't let them troll you,
don't let them boys control you.
they don't own you,
stop thinking,
they dont know you.
-
they don't know it takes awhile to be still,
to find form,
to find prose
and a comfort within yogic.
they'll come.
they always come.
-
they come in form of what you fear,
to distract you.
the lights are gleaming,
beaming red
and oh,
they flash too.
sending signals "just to warn you"
or some micro-waves to warm you...

not looking for a lover...
only someone unafraid to become again.
aware of dangers, depth and death;
still in motion though curiosity poses as a threat.

all of the things that are for me,
shall come to me.
all of the things that are meant,
shall come to be.
-
i put everything in its place.
only the good in my space.
im safe.
-

take your time,
only fools rush in.
know this journey here without
takes you far within.

school girl,
never follow the rules girl,
substance abusing,
think it’s amusing,
wanna be cool girl.
-

i realize that you will be who you are
and i am comfortable enough within myself
to allow you to express all that lies within you..
because who am i to try to change you?
after realizing my worth,  
ive realized that nothing is worth enough to disrupt my peace.
gracefully,
i move away from what no longer serves me
or deserves me.
patiently,
i wait on divine actions to arise before i consider your place in my space...
are you here to give or take?
for mine or for your sake?
for mind, soul or warm embrace?
you see im powerful,
still you see only half.
so make your choice
and
i hate to make you choose
but its them or its me.
--
not in fear of or in face of an ego or some pride,
just protecting what lies inside ..

inconsistency is a close friend of mine.
we argue like husband and wife,
can we ever agree on anything?
we compete with mood swings and incomplete projects..
ill try to save the world
although i take way too long to make a decision,
procrastination holds me weak
and inconsistency is a close friend of mine..

ill build with you,
ill build for you,
ill build
you...
        ill lend you strength when you are weak,
ill share my hope with you and speak
life,
speak peace,
radiate good energy.
ill be your remedy,
ill help you to increase your speed.
exposing enemies,
ill help you to decrease your need.
ill keep you young,
embracing youth.
ill keep you whole,
embracing truth.....
              until it becomes toxic then my presence will fade and for the rest of your days
   you'll regret all your ways.