I've got a lot of dead skin to slough off and a lot of people
that have forgotten how to love
of whom I need to let go.

tell me how the game
is supposed to go on
when one won't give up
and the other won't gamble.

When I'm apart from you
I still feel your hand
Held in mine
Your head
On my chest
And our lips
Pressed together

Every single part of my body
Shakes vigorously with
Anger, sadness, depression
My hands tremble aggressively
And I put my shirt in my mouth
So he won't hear me scream
******* and what you did to us
And I lay half naked on the floor
Of my locked room sobbing violently
When is it too much to handle

I have anxiety about my anxiety.
It's a constant vicious cycle that is wearing my body down little by little, destructing my health and the little peace of mind I have.

It seems as if my absence didn't do anything to you, but your absence in my life made insanity, anxiety, and depression even more present.
I used to silence your demons but it seems you passed them off to me.