Kevin Eli

Kevin Eli Aug 2012

Didn't sleep all night
8,000 miles
Fought with my mother, been going for a while
She doesn't understand me
I don't understand myself yet, who is doing these things?
I love her to death, But I just feel like
... A burden, a broken window, a stain with no solution.

I have to feel bad, I want to hate myself, I need to conform
And change.

Yet I hope and feel like I'll be okay, Someday
I just want to make her proud in some way,
To make us both feel okay,
To not drown,
To start over somehow
...And heal her scar
Because I gave her the grey hair, and the pain

Kevin Eli Jul 2012

***

Your skin doesn't lie,
Your lips don’t either.
The soft touch of hand,
Upon body,
You give in.
Sweat, spilled wine and swoon,
Your heart skips a beat,
Only to match mine
In sync.
Lights on, lights off.
Beat harder,
Breathe faster,
Using our bodies to see each other.
Stop and go
Holding our breath,
Gripping the sheets
Until it’s over.

#heart #wine #sweat #lips #*** #skin #lie #beat #swoon #sync

Kevin Eli Jun 2012

Silent Quiet War

Every person has a puzzle and rarely is there a key.
For each corner we turn around, we find another enemy.

Something's creeping, crawling inside.
Personal wars we make, where the bullets fly.

Killing for a name, for an upgrade, we **** each other.
Only to get *****,
Quietly...

Ducking for cover was never an option when you were raised painfully.
Words of love died why?
You forgot to sing to me.

I'm off to war dad, don't take it personally.
We all have a battle.
We all have temptations to feed...
Some love, while some greed.
Just remember to do it
Quietly.

Kevin Eli Jun 2012

The Value of a Life: 2012

Why is human life so valuable?
...Well is it?
Depends on who's values
My values?
I have none.
I lost them, taken away by my big brother.
Somebody PLEASE tell me the value of a life...

Kevin Eli Jun 2012

A Moment of Instinct

Lights out
Closed
Reflection
Inner thoughts
Mingling
Contraction
Memories lapse
Reviewed
Deduction
Open eyes
Dilation
Flooding
Reaction
What is perceived,
Is all we know

Kevin Eli Jun 2012

Departure

Well I'm sitting here with my friends
      and I can't tell them why
     this is the end
    of the times I'll try
   to explain again,
what I feel,
now,
and never
Again.

Kevin Eli Jun 2012

Digging

What I know
Oh I know
But did you know?
What they know?
Them cats be diggin'
Out to keep us down
Gettin' us goin' round
Oh I know

They ain't gonna stop me
From making my sounds
and goin' to town
Yes I know
How they know
How to keep cool
And spin it round

Yet I ain't afraid no more
For I am no fool
'Cuz in my world, I know
I make the rules.
Now.