the beginning
You dropped a seed.
I picked it up and gave it a home in myself.

the middle
It grew in my heart.
I cared so much for it,
Watered it,
As hard as it was, I even changed the soil surrounding it.
Blossomed into such a beautiful floret.

the end**
You left.
The sacred efflorescence shed its petals.
My soil wasn't enough for you.

don't drag me along on a ride you're not even on
you've gotten off this theme park attraction and i didn't even notice
i was too busy smiling from ear to ear
just tell me you don't love me anymore

When my depression ate at my soul, I was in a truly bad place.
I didn't have many physical friends.
The only ones that seemed to always care were in my head and fit in my shaking palms.

My judgement is clouded.
I can't tell right from wrong,
And you're to blame.

My habits have changed.
My friends call me insane,
And you're to blame.

My stomach constantly tickles.
My feet are walking toward you,
And you're to blame.

I'm ghosting my fingers on your spine.
Our lips are touching,
And you're to blame.

You have taken residence in my mind.
Rearranging the furniture,
You make yourself at home.
Put your feet up.
Get comfy.
You'll be here for a long time.