When you left me
I couldn't sleep
I stayed up all night
Counting the minutes wasted
These pills arent strong enough

When you left me
I couldn't feel
I tried every way
To stop the numbness
The blade wasnt sharp enough

My world will never be the same
And frankly i dont miss it

My body is fast asleep yet my mind refuses to dim, as I conjure rhyme and riddle , reason , then cloak shared pain at will  !! I roll in the bed ,wake every hour and pray that the dreams will stop ....Up at 5:30 with pen in hand ,to jot down the anguish all over again !

Slurp and gulp me
Hurt and stalk me,
It's fine
You've done this before.
And who loved who more,
It was me all along.
I'm done.