Kai - Hello Poetry

Kai Apr 3

Sometimes i wonder:
Do bullies hurt too?
I hurt a person,
And immediately knew
That it feels worse than to be hurt,
Yet they do it anyway
With all of those mean words
They have to say.
One selfish act,
A comment or two,
But they never felt worse
Than hurting you.

I accidentally hurt my best friend yesterday. He had a really bad day, i didn't know about it, i and this one person made a comment about him in our discord server, not really knowing that it would hurt him. I apologized but he didn't respond yet. (also, if you can read this somehow, i'm really ******* sorry)

#hurt #him

Kai Apr 3

Pain

The best of the worst motivators.

i feel like everytime i get hurt, i write to somehow cope with the feeling. i hate it. it almost feels as if i craved pain to get the motivation, the attention and validation to write new things. it certainly doesn't feel fair.

#pain

Kai Mar 31

Safety pin

You're like a safety pin.
Holding onto life for me
When i no longer can.

To this one special person.

#safety #pin #suicide #life

Kai Mar 27

Dot

In a million different people
Disappears a dot.
One second im alive,
The other i'm not.

not feeling too good rn

#suicide

Kai Mar 27

Suicide notes like love letters

I wrote suicide notes like love letters,
Maybe a bit too much.
Maybe a bit too often,
With those depressing words and such.

I wrote suicide notes like love letters,
Carefully chose every word.
Desperately trying to tell you,
That to me you meant the whole world.

I wrote suicide notes like love letters,
It almost felt like a crime.
Put my pen down like a weapon,
And glance at you one last time.

i wrote way too many of those

#suicide #note #letter #love #suicidal #sh #depression

Kai Mar 11

He saw them

The poems.
The old, brown notebook,
Filled with all of my secrets,
Big and small,
Coded into poetry.

My brother found my poems.. strangely enough, he liked them

#poem #notebook