the anchor
of my
mind has

melted

released into
the swelling
tide

tracing the lines of poems
has taught me clairvoyance.

now i can flip the cards behind your hearts.

word tricks are math.
reading is the art.

last thing  i remember
counting backward
cold room fading

chest cracked
exposing heart
broken but
still beating

illusion of control
dissolves like
anesthesia

hours and days
coagulate
dripping
through
my fingers

am i ok
not sure i want 
an answer

sternum
consumed
blue flame
of pain

but

dawn's light
growing

and

i awaken
three month
night

i am ok
but i will
never
be the same

now
I bleed
for all

and none

will bleed
for me

stay with me
i'm your escort
from the
void

stay with me
as i shed my
light
on
darkness

stay with me
as I coat your
soul
in
flesh

stay with me
as i print your
words
on
paper

stay with me
as I ****** you
from the
void

stay with me
now
oh words

oh words
do not retreat

look into the mirror
what is it that you see

beard's a little sparse
but hair is just right

right eyebrow needs a trim
but not a blemish in sight

ears are far from perfect
but body's ready to fight

or

gaze at the butterfly iris
and watch it never be still

look into the pupil
and feel a little chill

as i see the me that sees
the one that has free will

look into the mirror
what is it that you see

living
will ****
you




eventually