You know these kinds of thought,
                  like 'Mahathma Gandhi' once wrote
'You have to be that change,
                  if you want to see the World change'

Don't you think that it's so strange,
                  as we still haven't seen any change!
Now I know what 'Nehru' tried to state,
                  when he said 'ignorance is scared to change'

No No, I have nothing against you, My dear,
                  I just want you to come out of that fear,
that pinned you for so long in this chain,
                  from breaking out to the 'World of Change'

I hate that part of my life's plot,
                  that'd put me in a tight spot
That pity plot was made out of this thought
                  that I will never find 'hope in my Lord.'

I never saw that my perception was wrong,
                  and I made it my life's song
So that I can trip the light fantastic toe
                  and to sing that 'despair is my Lord.'

I laid all the blame on the son,
                  not knowing he is the one,
The only one that could guide the sun,
                  to shine upon the 'words of my Lord.'

Now I love this part of my life's plot,
                  where my Lord knocked off my dead knot.
I clinched all the words he spoke,
                  and now I know that 'hope is my Lord.'

Now all I want is to shout,
                  shout out loud without a doubt.
'You can bolt down this song for the faults,
                  yet your 'only hope is in my Lord.''

I still remember that night,
A picture on my screen, of a bride
With her groom, in so delight
Honey, I still remember that **** night,
the night that dropped a dark light,on the hope that we will reunite.

I held all the pills in my hand
No longer worried about it's bland
That thought no longer seemed offhand
My wet eyes joined my bleeding heart, in the joy of eluding this wasteland.

But my Lord was never done with his work
He told me that I am being a ****!
Then he decked the devil, as I look
On that night with the December's murk.

I wondered why he gave me that hope
Until I saw that text on my screen starts to pop.
Now my wet eyes joined my lull heart, and both started to *****.

I clicked on that message
made sure that it ain't any mirage.
I saw the face of this girl, a little older than those in college
Still she looked so much younger than her age.

She said,' My name is Helena'
'I no longer can bear this night'
'I saw a picture of this groom kissing his bride'
'He is the same person who promised me last night,
'that he will never ever leave out of my sight'

We had a same story-line for both our lives
Which dried all the tears in our eyes.
We gave hope to each other to survive,
to survive this night, and all the rest of the days and nights.

(There is a sequel to this one which has not yet been penned)

It's been a long time, on this bed,
        listening to all these songs of the dead
May be I should play something else instead,
        a song that could make everything redd.

"Dear, Do you remember any such song,
        that could make me forever strong?"
"Oh Joe, You waited all this time long
        for a notion which you'll never get along."

May be that's where I went wrong,
        I regret begging you to remember that song.
All I wanted was to try my luck before it's too long.
        I thought you'd remember, that your love was that vigorous song.

So now, I am back to the songs of the dead
        wishing for that day to come with no dread.
I hope for that day, a day with no more worries ahead,
        on which I get that final mend, for all these wounds in my head.

Now I can't feel a thing in this body
          Now I am nothing but a dead-body.
oh God, don't breath a new life into this body, of this noddy
          Just let me stay in this lifeless body, to lead a life with no jeopardy.

I might suicide now
or I just want to die somehow

I can't bear this pain
as all my efforts go in vain,
as I find no help in these help-lines.

I am not scared of breaking this world's law
All I am scared of is breaching Jesus's law
I am too confused with all these laws
But my love, what else can I do when you are lost.

How can I start living again?
How can I be happy again?
Where can I find peace again?
Will I get a chance again?
Will you be giving me a chance again?

There should be an answer for all these
For all these questions at least.
I know that I will never find an answer for this
as nobody gives any sh*t.

May be I should suicide now
though I don't wanna die now
All I now need is that moment
Huh, I wasted that second, again
I got lost and just found myself still alive
That ain't good, that ain't right as I am never gonna be alright.

May be I should suicide now
Even I think I wanna die now

Honey, Don't you think that you should help me die
As you are the only one who told me to go and die!

Do you remember what I had told
That getting over you is my only goal
But forgive me today for playing foul
Now getting over what I had told is my only goal!

I say, I love these pills, even when they say it kills
I had the blue one, then the white one
And now I have this blood red one

I love this one, who saved me when I had no one
Embraced me when I lost my love to another one

Now it's time I say 'Once I loved these pills'
Coz' now I know it kills,
all they want to see is my blood spills

So they stabbed on the wound, the wound on my back
a left over from a few years back
then I turned back
They say " Our knife got broken by your back."
"We are leaving for now but for sure we'll come back"
"Till then you keep this souvenir on your back"