1-800 I need your help.
My brain is screaming,
I am unsure of what to do.
1-800 She left me again
this time for good.
She left traces of herself everywhere
and i can smell her in my bed sheets.
1-800 I opened my own flesh again.
I was searching for the thing
that lives inside of me.
It is growing stronger
and so is my fear.
1-800 Why am I on the side of the highway?
It's 2 AM.
I'm watching the car's lights zip by
under the comforting blanket
of the night sky.
1-800 My skin bag
is full of capsules
meant to fix me.
I guess I'm sicker than I thought.
1-800 I want to fly
soar into the sky
and plunge into the sea.
1-800 I am tired of you.
I don't care about these
words of hope you feed to me.
1-800 the sadness is still here
yet I can manage.
I want to see the sun come up
and be one with this earth.
I don't need you anymore.
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