After some serious thought
I have decided that work
gets a nought out of ten.

jeez
even I got more than that on the Richter scale.

She lived her life like this-since she was fourteen,
Could never tell reality from her daydreams
Until she met disappointment,
that's a good tell,
This isn't wonderland Alice-
its your personal hell
And you can blame bad luck, **** cards, the wrong genes,
At the end of the day
these are YOUR seams.
This is real life,
stitches need upkeep
yet you're so surprised
its not like in your sleep-
where you're adventurous,
mouthy, and tall
Not this anxious ball of anger,
tremendously scared to fall.

I have a hunch
said Quasimodo.

Judy
because Judy knew me
and Punch
was not best pleased
but
seaside outside
and the show's on the beach

I built my sand castle
counted every grain
now
the tide is coming in
I'll have to build it again.

Anyway
I have things to do
not sure what they are
but definitely things
and
yet again
I am scheduled to work
not until later though.

Wishing it would take longer to get ready for work
but wishing won't make that so,

I know that
you know that
time to close the door on the flat
must
remember the keys
turn off the gas
double check the lights are off
then I'll be off

some say I already am

*******.

have a great Saturday kidz, play nicely.

Woke again and before five
probably alive
but hard to tell.

Made it to the coffee jar
it wasn't far
but far enough.

aha and now awake
ready to work now
but not quite

another nap
perhaps 23 winks
don't want to overdo it.

Already done that bruv
gone through the whole gamut
got fed up
and stopped.

what you do
is not up to me
it's up to you

but it'll **** ya
take the luck from ya
and put ya down.

just saying bruv
it's a hard time
coming back.

We're not being chemically coshed
we're being brainwashed
easier and
cheaper

keep a diary
wire me the details

shambling down the stairs?
take the uppercase
just in case
they're watching.

oh
what a way to go
under a star sign,
librium
******
thalium
want some?