Everytime you leave me,
I drown in thoughts and tears.
Everytime you touch me,
I smile, but I still fear.
'Cause what if you'll leave me,
you're doing it,
again.
But what if you'll love me,
my flaws and who I am.
I am afraid that I'll choose wrong.
So I am standing,
in the middle, in between.
I am afraid that you'll leave me,
once you have seen it,
me.

Why does it feel like you died
Even though your still alive?
You weren’t the boy who took my virginity
But yet somehow I know for a fact
I gave you my soul
I know for a fact that you loved me too
I could see it when you’d look at me
I would look up for a second and glance back to find you in a daze
I’d ask what you were staring at
And you always stayed quiet
But I know that look meant something
I can only hope it was love
Did you know I sleep with a picture of you under my pillow
Did you know I pray for you every night
Even though I’m not religious
Did you know being tangled up in my blankets is how I feel close to you
You were the boy to break the curse
You broke my three month curse
Only by a day, but we made it
You broke a lot of records, and for that I love you more than anyone
You tried to get me mad one night and when I yelled and burst into tears you said “come here” and held me tighter than a life jacket
When we laid in my bed that first night you said you weren’t going anywhere



—you said you were all in


On the 15th you told me something itching at you and then held my hand and gave me that same look of love and kissed me harder than anyone ever has


—you said you would try


But then you said you needed time

It’s been a week and I haven’t stopped crying.
(v.m)

Missing you is hell
It's like a darkness of consumption
Missing you is like
a blind person missing all the colors
Missing you is like
a dessert with out water
I miss you like
a fallen angel missing her halo
I miss you babe

Your back
Aganist my back

Your hands are waiting
To clasp mine

Light eyes meeting mine

They say you're the stars
All you do is burn my heart
Trying to come inside

Multiple times
I said stop

Every time
I'm out
You're already waiting for me

I'm in distress
Never get a moment alone

You hear every word I say

They say you're sunshine
But you keeping burning up my skin

Am I doing the same
Does your heart go insane
Whenever I'm around

Do you feel dizzy
At the sound of my voice

You're making a fire
I'm trying to put it out

Finally,
She was so poor
has nothing to clean..

don't leave when i tell you to
because darling, all i need in this world
right now is your fingers laced with mine,
the feeling of your breath against my neck,
your soft mouth over my collarbone,
your eyes watching me.
because when i say leave, i mean it like
a synonym to please please please stay.