Do you know how much it hurts?
To see you everyday. To know you everyday.  
Trying to believe that what we had was real. What we have is real.
I tried to believe in you. Did you know that? I believed in you. I believe in you.
But you of all people. I don't know what I expected. I'm tired of getting hurt.
You've hurt me more than I should've let you. You hurt me.

I loved you. I love you.

And I had to let go. I can't let you go.

I'm sorry. *I'm so sorry.

How long will I wait?
Will it be until my hair turns grey?
Or when knees have grown far too weak,
To take the same steps,
You're taking towards me.

How long will I wait?
Will it be until my eyes will fail to see?
You, finally coming home to me.
But for you wear a beauty, eyes like mine,
Made to know you, are never too blinded to recognize.

How long will I wait?
Will it be until my hands have started to shake?
Through the long endeavored touch of time,
That has grown to ages,
But are never too shaken,
To hold what they have been long waiting.

How long will I wait?**
Will I be strong enough to hold on?
Will I still live to see?
Or will I die with nothing,
But lost hope and all just waiting.

.

I don’t know if skies are blue
or if the lawn holds morning dew
I’ve not a thought of something new
or where the hummingbirds just flew

How sticky might just be that glue
or where’s the rose that I once grew
If shore leave can deplete a crew
or if we’re having homemade stew

It matters not if beer is brew
or if the day is almost through
If all I had was one black shoe
the other one a brownish hue

If there’s a lot or just a few
or if the mantle hides a flue
If lions live outside the zoo
or share their cages with a gnu

All I know is what I do
I spend my life just loving you
And if my nightly dream came true
then you’d love me forever too

I always dreamed
of being a poet

I met you

that dream
came true

I was once your home,
but you burned me down