When I realized we would have to be a week apart,
I thought I'd again fall apart and I would lose my heart.
But, I simply lived on.
And today, you called
For the first time I didn't answer on the first ring.
I missed the sound of your voice
Especially, when I realized that this time you were the one who fell apart without me.

You always experience summer
What a happy being
I know all four seasons
beauty and darkness in each
I've learned to adapt.
I've grown.
I've thrived
While you simply bask in the sun
And flash an ignorant smile.

Darling, dear, I never knew
I'd encounter someone as toxic as you,
but I can't find proof that “deadly” describes you.
You make me smile; you can make me laugh,
But it can't be safe for my heart to beat this fast.

Well, it's never been easy.
We've all threatened to run away, and all for different reasons.

I threatened to leave when I did not receive a Barbie Jeep
Then, I entered my teens and threatened to leave
when I confused misunderstanding and mistreat.
Now, I'm slightly older, and you say to me: “Let's travel the world...so many beautiful sights to see."

With that small invitation, running away gained a new connotation. I'm running away to find me.

In the heart of a blackened soul,
My dear you will find
A weird beating bleeding thing just like every other being apart of mankind.
However, in the soul of a blackened heart,
My dear you will find
The scars and raging memories that you left behind.