We kissed and said goodbye
"Don't miss me too much" I teased
And you didn't.

Yes, I am still alive.
but I
no longer enjoy
the senation of
air entering
my lungs

I don't deserve good things

don't go into a hurricane for me

I'm not worth saving

even if our love rots me inside

it's all I have

I will stay by your side until you **** me

I will stay until I go insane

you made me weak

I was a good person

now decomposing from the inside

everything is the same

where is the hope

I only see the conflict

let me in

I locked myself inside

it's better this way

i find myself in the middle
in what i'm going through
with the left wrong, the right too far gone
misconstrued attitudes

raising hands of you bet we can
in everything they do
someone must be lying
to tell you the truth

i find myself in the middle
where it gets hard to breath
as both sides of this conundrum
put a squeeze on me

with tear filled eyes i see both sides
are beyond reasonable belief
i find myself in the middle
is the perfect fit for

oh my dear do not worry!
it will all be okay.

but i don't have a 4.0 GPA
i don't pull enough all nighters
i need to work harder somehow

oh my dear do not worry!
it will all be okay.

but everyone tells me i'm going to fail!
they are right
i will never be what i want to be

oh my dear do not worry!
it will all be okay.

i am tired and broken down from pushing myself.
but i am still called lazy.
how does that make sense at all?

textured like
velvety memory
tickling my skull
iridescent feathered mind
wafting ideas
delicious odorous ideas
ripe with potential
inviting starved nostrils
alluding hope
delivering naught