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isabelle Dec 2018
you read the words i type
you hear the ones i say
, you read them, you believe them
and you still won’t go away

i want you to move on
trust me its better like this
why won't you just believe me
please just move on, i insist

i love that you want to be here
i love that you want to hold my hand
but some things i can’t explain,
some things you just won’t understand

things were going good
and then i bailed
i do it every time,
but its you, who feels like you’ve failed

i never wanted that for you,
and i still never would
but you just don’t get it
and i wish you understood

so im sorry i ended it all
just like i always do
i wish i could’ve figured it out
because im still in love with you.
i just wish i wasnt like this. you know?
isabelle Aug 2018
you.
The voice in the back of my mind
The voice that i cant seem to find
I try to ignore it, please go away
No matter what i do, its here to stay
Wherever i am whatever i do
Its still here, i cant get rid of you
I try to fight it i do try my best
Its always there, it never seems to rest
I cant seem to escape, the voices in my head
i just cant escape, and it has me wishing i was dead.
isabelle Aug 2018
I know a boy, he holds in a lot
He tells me he's fine, but i know he’s not
He says he’s okay, and hides behind a smile
But i know whats wrong, and it's been going on for a while

Once he opened up, told it all to me
We were both still awake, when the clock turned three
Here on the earth, he doesn’t want to live
But i tell him no, he has so much to give

It kills me inside, to know why he hurts,
He’s always neglected, and left in the dirt
The reason he hurts, is not what you think
He’s in pain all the time, his feelings on brink

On brink of explosion, to hurt him for good
I tell him to stop, but he thinks that he should
Should hurt himself, do something he’ll regret
And if the day comes, i'll never forget

Never forget the boy who holds in a lot,
Who tells me he's fine, but i know he's not
Nothing to be ashamed of, just a chemical imbalance
And it really shouldn't stop him, from expressing his talents

All the horrible thoughts, swarming in his head
He can't get them out, so he ignores it instead
Shuts out all the thoughts, the people, the feelings
And it doesn't do much, just stops him from healing

Then one night when we lay under the same stars
He rolled up his sleeves, and showed me his scars
I didn't know what to say, no idea what to do
So i rolled up my sleeves and showed him mine too

but why did you ruin, such a beautiful boy
why did you put him here, if all you do to him is destroy
destroy his feelings, control his thoughts and his mind
take everything and leave nothing behind

hes not the same as he was, and he never will be
you’ve ruined him for everyone, and he can never truly be free
he was so kind before, would never hurt a soul
but now he’s bitter, and it's because of your control

why do you ruin, the most promising ones,
the ones who can't overcome you, do you do it for fun
depression. why did you do this to him
i hate you so much, i don't know where to begin

so i know a boy, but hes not the same anymore
he still tells me hes okay, just like before
the only difference from then, is i don't know what to do
i truly don't think i can help him, but someone has to.

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