I'm made of all;
The books I've ever read
Poems I've ever written
Faces who have smiled at me
Hugs that have wrapped around me
Caresses that have graced my inner thigh
Countries & continents my feet have touched
The lovers as we simultaneously reach ecstasy within
Lonely nights shedding tear drops
Nights gazing black skies moon & stars
Children falling asleep to my heartbeat
Animals whose soul was found through reflective eye stares
Conversations spoken in French, Spanish, Italian, Xhosa, Afrikaans, Norwegian, German
Years of ******-, cognitive-, dialectical-, art-, drama-, music-, mindfulness-, trauma-, psychiatry-; therapies
The drinks & drugs & mind altering substances dispersing my mind
In all I'm made of;
Love
Lust
Greed
Fear
Joy
Freedom
Longing
Dreams
Despair
Sadne­ss
Anger
Frustrations
Happiness
Anxieties
Insecurities....

In all I'm made of;

A soul; securely contained within a body of battled scars;
over;
pain & triumphs, losses & gains, rejections & acceptances, dishonours & accolades...

With the hope; she too, can live life through.

© Sia Jane

I am alive in your veins
I still run through your body
And I'm the poison that kills you everyday
When you try to push me away

Slicing your wrists open
Will not make me disappear
You know I am here for a reason

You invaded my thoughts for MONTHS
And blasted your fists on my jaw
I have been black and blue for YEARS

I can only retaliate
By invading your troubled cells
I am running through your body
And demolishing everything I touch
You destroyed me from the outside
I will annihilate you from the inside
I can tell you feel the pain
And I hope it
Hurts.