see me sitting
on the floor
see the cracks
inside the flaws
feel my anger
live my pain
I'll never be
the same again
while I exist
inside life's twister
my anchor will be
*My Sister

I dial your number and pause
In the moment before the moment.

Hello?

In an instant, you are not just a memory, a regret, a thousand miles a way
You are with me in the car, parked in a lot.
The spotlight hits me and I turn on.

Hello!
(as if I’m surprised to hear voice)
How are you?
(like I really care)
Guess what!
(as if my brief reappearance in your life is the best news you’ve ever heard)

Rain spits on my windshield as I laugh with you
A suave performance to meant to pass as reality.
I savor the sound of your voice
Caught off guard
And cringe at the pauses
The stiff formalities and cold distance.

I dance in circles on the phone
An artificial, plastic caricature
Synthetic nonchalance tightly orchestrated
Still contorting myself to impress you.

I miss you my love
I miss you at night as i gaze upon the stars
I miss you in the morning when sun rises
I miss you whole day when i look over the sky
I miss you when mid night moon shy
I miss you when earth becomes sad
I miss you when weather feels so bad
I miss you where wind is blowing
I miss you where river is flowing
I miss you when it starts snowing
I miss you when i walk lonely in raining
I miss you and want to hold you in my arms
i miss the day when by chance we both met
& Now lonely dark nights make me dead
i miss you so much it hurts, my love
I miss you like there is no tomorrow, my dove
I miss your smile, your joy, your lips
I wish you would be here, my loneliness grips.
You are my dear love, my life, my everything
I wish i would be with you only & i need nothing
I miss you with my entire heart
I wish we were no longer apart.

By shaffu