Its been one of those days
when i feel like
THIS IS IT
with all those cheering and
words of encouragement.
I cannot seem to break
this feeling of numbness
addiction of staying arrested
arrested by this blunt feeling.
It doesn't give an instant dead
but slowly graze upon my soul
till i feel nothing at all
that numbness
is my final resort
which tells me
THIS IS IT
your ultimate wake up call!

i always wanted to be free
free from every trouble
free from my burden
i always wanted freedom for some vague reason
reason i am not sure if it is even real
but i don't see no bars holding me here
am i the one caging myself in this bizarre illusion?
every time i try to reason with myself
it ends up in conclusion
this is what i am, plagued with thoughts of rage
or it is just too big of a cage.

taste of your wit
souring my mouth
i'll not smile just to seem OK
happiness means much more to me
its a real feeling
i had it when i knew no evil in anyone
world seemed magical then
flower blooming in a meadow without care
seemed like divine power of sun is gift for us all

now i have seen other side too
harsh sun drying every drop of water as it could
i knew not what the flower have been through
so lot, just to bloom
and then i met many like you
you all have similar color blue
i see more when i look from away
this spherical world is not even at all

on my second lazy morning when i heard noise again
i knew i woke up too late
there was this pair of bird planning nest in my basin
today only he came back or is it she?
skilled mason, lets assume it is he
its not the first time though
they came yesterday too
i threw off all the twigs and threads
letting them know its my place, clear message
despite that i might add
he seems very persistent
must have promised his lover,a nest in this particular place
if its a challenge given to him
he'll fail this scheme.
alas! he'll never hatch an egg
despite of his toil, collecting shining reel, slender sticks and
nutmegs?

your piercing gaze surely does know to
reach my heart without me knowing,  
you were here,you have been always here
cooped up comfortably inside my thoughts.
your love seems to know no bound
i can't recall if i have encounter anyone like you
believe me darling i did looked around.

year slipping day by day
nothing new happening today.
yet another winter has passed
melancholy days gone at last.

lets see new bloom
swim across green lake
for these are moments no one can take.

lets reach beyond that last shadow hill
see if the lake is silent or just still.

we'll make it back before next winter comes
and we'll find out what we have become.

lover's lovely love words hold such feeling
how appealing it sounds
does resonant in the heart more loud
this constant feeling of love and suffocation
does know well to remain intact together
they don't let each-other escape
won't be so easy they say
only way is to let it in or let go