unsettling thoughts moving in whirlpool within me
i wish i could just think it off, off of me
it would be great to breathe in some free air
without having to think what am i doing.

we shall see default expansion
the day we are truly free.
we shall identity in no faction
but in unanimity with no skeleton key.
that day we can conjure up the plan
to explore within and beyond galaxy.
can you imagine alien called HUMAN
landing on another earth in distant days?
i can imagine it but never vivid
i used to think bigger in old days
so lets
ignore
this ****
it is just my childish wish .

One day, when the day comes
i'll prove you have nothing to worry about
that i am all yours.
One day, when the day comes
i'll take that leap through stars
and put it into beautiful rhyme
how i always liked it.
One day, when the day comes
i'll do all the things kept on hold
then i shall feel complete and whole
and
That one day, i won't have to think
about the list of things i haven't done.
Or i might even feel nothing
because sometimes what i wanted
is not even clear to me.
Everyday i talk to myself
what do i wish to accomplish
one day?
The remark is always fuzzy.
Only thing certain is that
ONE DAY my day'll come
and i haven't a faintest idea
how its going to play out.

so here where it led me
after this long time
after this long tardy travel
i can't say if i like it here
or maybe i am beginning to like it
or is it the habit settling in
i have always dreaded of being
rooted in one place and yet somewhere
in my heart i longed for it too
so here where it led me
here i am
i am scared and fearful
this is what i knew would happen
this is what i wanted to avoid
on second thought,i am not
published story but
manuscript in the process
it may fail to be successful one
but i can turn it how i want it
and that thought is enough
to keep me going,
keep going on and be part of
that sketch of lady disappearing  in dark
or is it emerging into light?
i wont know which part will i be
of that shaded sketch of lady
in black and white.
but here i am and i don't have to stop...